If I may have your attention, if you will. Why’s the current suicide rate of the people on this site? Do you have anything on that perhaps in the form of a death to month average. I would really like to figure that out as I can’t think to myself and I’m stuck on that. I make imaginary speeches in a virtual world on OSP. I address the situation that so far we are not represented as the suicidal people of America… No of the world and we are more than a statistic from dying once or twice per month and we must have some sort of representation for these people and I appointed in my head my many as I’m reliable (in my head, I may not be really in life) especially since I think like an OSPer, yet I don’t commit the act of suicide or plan it. I just edge closer and closer to insanity. Now I shall explain that I so far have moments of insanity where it goes on for about an hour and then I’m normal.
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Now, do you find many of us depressed beyond repair, maybe many of us including I Nathan as an insane person? Im starting to think I’m not now. Maybe it’s that most people who are insane don’t know it. When will I pass that moment?
What do I do if I convinced my dad this site has helped me when he hasn’t really understood my situation. He didn’t take heed to my warning about bringing me to a psychologist.
SP representative: Rogue Shadow/Nathan
Any other people with a leading role such as life sucks thin you die could have the role of leader as she may be famous on this site for countless acts of kindness and her creating a secret SP Facebook group. She is a leader.
Kieran could be gay and bisexual rights activist and/or leader.
Unique is a therapist of whom I would like to speak to to diagnose my problems if she can do it through messaging. Although i would be so grateful she would deserve compensation of some sort.
Damn I fell asleep.
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Nathan,
You have the same name as my 20 year son who died last December by suicide while serving in the Navy in Guam. I did know he was struggling with suicidal thoughts even though we did a lot of things together the month before he left for Guam. Have you talked to your parents or any other adult about the things you are struggling with?
@twatford: Yes and My mother doesn’t think it’s too ba and she can’t afford it and my dad thinks it’s just a phase and that I can get the help by myself when really it’s much harder than he really thinks. He also thinks it’s not as bad as it really is.
@one_day: it was merely a thought that I wrote down on words because I probably will never suicide unless I actually do something to prove to myself that I deserve death to escape the suffering… Until then I will continue to do what is not going to “help” me as others would think it yet for me it’s a means to allow me to put an end to my misery… Anyways what I meant to say is I imagined representing the people (SPOTUS) suicidal people of the United States (and other places) due to my inability to commit suicide. Therefore I would be the perfect candidate to represent them as I can think like the rest of us with my own personal experiences and disorders, yet not be among the suicide statistics. It’s not like I would take my thoughts and bring them before the Supreme Court or something.
@twatford: Nice, at least he joined the Navy, I prefer the Army, because I aint a great swimmer nor desire to be. Hope he at least landed a few successful shots on the enemy rather than only on himself.
I don’t really understand what you’re proposing…
If you’re looking for statistics of how many people on this site die, well you won’t find any because this site is annonymous.
If you’re talking about appointing a representative for SP, I ask… why? Everyone is here representing themselves. Everyone speaks for themselves. I don’t see any lead to appoint a ‘leader’, as there is no agenda here to push, apart from self expression, and having a leader for that would be self defeating. Personally, I don’t want you or Life Sucks, or Kieran to speak on my behalf because I’m quite capable of that myself. What would be the point in appointing a heirachy here? Why is there a continued insistance on implementing heirachy, which would serve no practical reason?
FYI Unique is a male, and you can email him to talk, he has posted several times with that offer. I’ve found him to be a supportive, understanding and intuitive person.
@rouge, I maintain that I don’t want you or anyone else to ‘represent’ me, I’m quite capable of that myself. Also, I don’t think suicidal people are really so similar, so the idea that you can speak for everyone is a little… well, frankly I find it insulting. Everyone’s condition is different, that’s why depression is so hard to treat. So the idea that one person could speak for and represnt us all is a massive oversimplifictaion.
Sorry about that I just was having a daydream and not taking in everything, every little variable, it’s not insulting though, I don’t believe, if you were to off yourself, your ideals may be similar to mine but not altogether exact.