Over the past year i’ve been experiencing a variety of medical problems. My main concern is a state of vertigo i am always in. Every waking moment of my day is spent feeling dizzy and wanting to throw up, this is not a mental thing I am sure as hell feeling it in the depths of my stomach. All my symptoms point to the little known Menieres disease, of which there is no cure and is degenerative. It affects balance and hearing. I’m 19, and i’ve read alot about this disease, what seems to be of common occurence is that it generally gets worse as people age. Treatment is ineffective, and there is no cure. I can’t bare the thought of being an invalid for any moment of my life. I feel like my life has burnt out to a natural end. It is better for me to go now and for people to remember me as a lively 19 year old rather than an incapicated 30 year old. I want to end my life so badly, but i want it to be quick and painless. I do not want my family to know until after my death, for which i have already prepared notes detailing my thoughts. I hope someone reads this and can take a more positive outlook on their own life. Don’t get me wrong life is great, I just can’t see myself not leading a normal one. For those of you who have read this I thank you sincerely from the depths of my soul. God bless us all
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Hi 🙂
I’m sorry to hear that you are suffering. As a mentally ill person, I know the feeling of wanting to quit before it gets too bad.
I’m just wondering, why are you taking this very big decision if you haven’t yet been diagnosed by a proper doctor?
A medical student I know told me just the other day that when people try to diagnose themselves off info from the Web, they’re wrong 80% of the time.
What if your symptoms are caused by something else, and what if it’s curable?
Shouldn’t you at least find out first?
If you think I can help you in any way, please let me know.
Wishing you all the best and peace of mind,
Daniel
i dont think u have Menieres disease , it effects ppl how are much older
there is alot of diseases can make this symptoms
go and see proper doctor
Hi Daniel, my symptoms seem incurable. You know that feeling after you come down from a rollercoaster, the queeziness in your stomach, vomit at the base of your throat and the feeling that noone can help you? That’s what it’s like for me almost 24 hours a day. My GP seems of no assistance and attempts to ignore my cries of help by means of consecutive referrals to other doctors. Believe me I have spent literally weeks researching my symptoms all of which do indeed point to Meniere’s. I have no intention of waiting weeks, months or even years to get a proper diagnosis – as I said I’m 99% sure that I have Menieres.
Sorry my original post was ambigious, it wasn’t open for people to convince me not to end my life. I have already decided on a date and have written a few letters to my immediate family and closest friends. I hope people don’t view this as a selfish act of escape; sometimes when all gets too much the best thing is to leave before one becomes a burden. I’ve left notes detailing my exact plans after my death, mainly donating my bank balances to various charities and donating all of my goods of value to Children In Need.
Thankyou for your concern Daniel, I hope the best for your future.
Why don’t you tell your family you feel like shit 24/7?
It seems like an odd form of communication to kill oneself and then leave a note explaining why.
Why don’t you pick up the phone?
I admire you for not wanting to be a burden. All I will say is I’ve never met a relative of someone who comitted suicide who was grateful.
My family will be greatful to finanlly not have to deal with the asshole brother, my kids will be a different story