First and foremost, Happy New Year everyone, though it seems that some of you here have had/are having a crappy time. I’m new here, name’s Aki. I stumbled upon this site a few months/years back, but never registered. Got put off by the seeming anti suicide I was reading on here at that time (I [...]

For all of you suffering a bit of heartache …we all lose sometimes ….anyway, hope you like …from my hometown ~ Melbourne ~(Goyte) is the artist.

This is the worst way to spend my New Years. I know that this is really something not to get depressed or even suicidal about, but I maybe moving schools. And its not the kind of moving schools I like. I would be moving to a online school. Which means no theater, because there isn’t [...]

I am trying to hang on but one more year is just too much. One more minute is too much. I’ve been reaching out and asking for help all day. Nothing came. I need a reason not to give in to this pain.

Lies mess things up. I’ve told lie upon lie to try to get through each day, week, month, year. They all come back to bite me eventually. I have a few more out there – bills about to come due. God, please make the landing gentle or erase the debt. My mother lied to me [...]

We all inherit (to some degree) thoughts from others, be they from childhood, teenage years, or from things we have read or seen be it on the web, books or in real-life. Some peoples thoughts are good, some well intentioned, some so so, and some not so good at all (for themselves or others). Just [...]

I’m a bad person. I push people out, I call them names. I push people’s buttons, so that they end up hurting. I make mistakes and knowingly blame others so that they can suffer a long with me. If someone asks for help, I will help, but I’ll torment throughout the process. I don’t like [...]

You’ve got a reason to live, This is not your time, Even love its darkness..the sun will shine again. This will pass in time. -Kaelyn Solomon

I lost the most important person to me. my grandma. i handled most of it well. i stayed strong for my family. i kept everyone postive and focused while she was dying. but upon  her death i got stupid drunk and started asking for ridiculous shit from people close to  me dumping even more budens [...]