Archive for December, 2011

Is 2012 the end of MY world?

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

First and foremost, Happy New Year everyone, though it seems that some of you here have had/are having a crappy time. I’m new here, name’s Aki. I stumbled upon this site a few months/years back, but never registered. Got put off by the seeming anti suicide I was reading on here at that time (I […]

Just a cool vid …

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

For all of you suffering a bit of heartache …we all lose sometimes ….anyway, hope you like …from my hometown ~ Melbourne ~(Goyte) is the artist.

Wost New Years Ever…

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

This is the worst way to spend my New Years. I know that this is really something not to get depressed or even suicidal about, but I maybe moving schools. And its not the kind of moving schools I like. I would be moving to a online school. Which means no theater, because there isn’t […]

Lies

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

Lies mess things up. I’ve told lie upon lie to try to get through each day, week, month, year. They all come back to bite me eventually. I have a few more out there – bills about to come due. God, please make the landing gentle or erase the debt. My mother lied to me […]

Happy New 2012!!

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

Just a thought …..

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

We all inherit (to some degree) thoughts from others, be they from childhood, teenage years, or from things we have read or seen be it on the web, books or in real-life. Some peoples thoughts are good, some well intentioned, some so so, and some not so good at all (for themselves or others). Just […]

Bad Person

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

I’m a bad person. I push people out, I call them names. I push people’s buttons, so that they end up hurting. I make mistakes and knowingly blame others so that they can suffer a long with me. If someone asks for help, I will help, but I’ll torment throughout the process. I don’t like […]

lost

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

I lost the most important person to me. my grandma. i handled most of it well. i stayed strong for my family. i kept everyone postive and focused while she was dying. but upon  her death i got stupid drunk and started asking for ridiculous shit from people close to  me dumping even more budens […]

So Tired…

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

I can’t begin to explain how tired I am of everything.  Tired of being a failure, tired of the loneliness, tired of feeling like an alien that doesn’t belong anywhere, tired of not having any money, tired of putting on a brave face, tired of my shitty family, tired of having “trusted” friends stabbing me […]

From Your Future ….

Saturday, December 31st, 2011

As I am now “literally” in the & from the future, I wish everyone here, young & old(er) a somewhat happy New Year, and I genuinely hope/want/desire that you all have a “better” (not perfect, it doesnt exist) year ahead. Will there be so so days or problems? Off course there will be not so […]