Archive for January, 2012

Helium

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

I’m 34 and have been suffering from depression for at least 17 years and ADHD since I was a child. My mother didn’t like how I reacted to Ritalin as a child so the ADHD was left untreated until I was prescribed Adderall about 5 years ago. The difference in output and energy was night […]

:/

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

I don’t know what to do anymore. My home life is terrible. Therapy isn’t helping. I’m never happy. I’m always alone. All of my friends leave when I need them the most. I don’t want to die. I just don’t want to be here anymore.

Starvinq!

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

I decided yesterdaythat I need to practice beinq hunry cause I plan to runaway when I have enouqh money to by a bus ticket.I’m a veqetarian and yesterday I went over to my friend’s house,he was qrillinq hamburqers.I was starvinq s bad that I would’t ate three burqers!!Instead I went home to eta my face […]

I’m fighting..

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

I’m fighting to try not to cut, tho i hurt so much! i don’t want to cut. i really don’t. but its so hard. and its probably helping that I’m not clue to any scissors right now. but later tonight i will be.. and i don’t know if i will be able to handle it… […]

What was I thinking?

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

I was approached today by a friend about her supicion I was thinking about self termination. She lost her first husband to suicide and does volunter work for a prevention hotline a couple nights a month. I guess I was an easy read for her. It caught me off guard damn it and I stumbled. I confessed. What a stupid […]

Chickened out.

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

I was very close to finally doing it last night. I was all set to go then I couldn’t get my mum out my head. I can’t fucking do it! I chickened out because I can’t leave her on her own. People on this site with no family ties are so lucky! I can’t go […]

i hate boys!

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

a guy just asked my out then a week later he dumped me:’(. i really liked this guy maybe even loved but we never talked in person that much because my stupid so called friends always push me shove me and scream at me to talk to him. but id rather talk to him alone […]

just something i read…..

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

Sometimes God doesn’t change your situation cause he’s trying to change your heart.

A Different Perspective

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

I just stumbled across this site and skimmed some posts and comments and a lot of it seemed so familiar. The issues as well as the advice. Personally, I never found certain kinds of advice helpful but I will refrain from pointing out specific ones and instead just share my story and hope it will […]

Nitrogen Exit Bag??

Tuesday, January 31st, 2012

This is my first posting on here.. Oh wow, I don’t even know where or how to start. Just gonna wing it.. I am 26 years old and living a miserable life inside my miserable home in miserable Phoenix, AZ. Actually I have been very fortunate.. I have a great family and they may be, […]