January 31st, 2012by Jamie-S11
I was very close to finally doing it last night. I was all set to go then I couldn’t get my mum out my head. I can’t fucking do it! I chickened out because I can’t leave her on her own. People on this site with no family ties are so lucky! I can’t go on living but I can’t die either. I so badly need someone to talk to in person, and I don’t mean a therapist who’s only there for the pay, I mean someone like me who feels the way I do! Life is just so fucking unbearable and I can’t take any more but I have to. My mum is the greatest person in the world, she’s done everything for me and only wants what’s best for me. She’s always encouraged me and supported me in everything I’ve done and she deserves so much better than me. All I think about all day is death and she has no idea. She’s taken me to doctors, psychologists, therapists,Â etc,Â but none of them work! I just wish I’d never been born! I shouldn’t be alive. I have no desire to be alive and I need to leave! I simply NEED to leave! I just can’t do it. Anyone in the same boat as me?