Archive for February, 2012

tried to edit my post

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

give up how to edit two posts. wasn’t at all I want to say. I tried edit over and over I feel worse now than ever. what I was trying to say is I lost my house , my daughter did everything she should to complete high school, even a year early. have lost my […]

sorry stupid

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

I wrote a song I don’t even know if anyone can understand me. think there’s anything anybody can say or do change how much I want to see sun from the earth

my heart ache

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

I tried to be so nice to people I am I think a mistake my kindness for weakness. I have a lot of learning disabilities. true while I was really feeling well. I got my real estate license and I started really doing well. now I have lost my home to foreclosure. my daughter has […]

Ending One Way or Another

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

I don’t understand. My life is fine. Good, even. I’m a straight A student, smart, funny, Christian, been awarded multiple scholarships recently. Teachers love me. But when I go home at night, all I can think about is what they would do if I were to kill myself. What would my friends say? I want […]

Hopeless.

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

I already posted on here, and I’m sorry if I get annoying, but this is the only place where I can let it out where people won’t hurt me. I feel so alone and sad and like no one cares. I’m crying for no reason, sobbing, really. I can’t take it anymore. Every time I […]

Relapse

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

Things were starting to look up, but it’s all coming crashing down. I was getting stronger, not having the violent and/or scary thoughts anymore, my grades were getting better, and I was just starting to go back to my old self. Today I realized that I’m apparently not ok. A girl working in my group […]

Robots Need Love Too

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

I’ve had about a week of feeling completely robotic.  I just keep doing things to distract myself from my own head.  It’s seems as though as long as my hands are occupied, my brain is going to stay quiet.  But I have to go to bed eventually, I need to sleep.  I have so much […]

someone save me from myself

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

I can’t keep this up. I always fall for the wrong guys and I’m starting to hate myself. I hate the way I’m too nice. I hate the way all I want is attention and I work so hard for them to notice me and they don’t.. I hate everything. I hate my body. I […]

This heartbreak of mine.

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

So, the story is that… I live with my grandparents, my dad died when I was seven by shootin himself..and my mom wants everything to do with me now. But didn’t when I was born.. Today, my grandparents don’t want anything to do with me because I party and leave “home” to much,yet when I […]

shh.

Wednesday, February 29th, 2012

i look like a normal girl. twenty years old, 5’4″, blue eyes, blonde hair, skinny. quiet. smart. funny. i play the piano. sometimes i read keats, and i like dipping vegetables in ranch dressing and my favorite dress is blue and slinky and soft. but here’s a secret: i’m scared of cameras. everywhere i go, […]