I’m numb, and dying inside,
i take my anger out on my wrists.
i hate myself for it.
i wish i would just die already,
the blood is dripping to slowly,
i feel like i can only make people
happy if im gone…. i guess this is it.
I’m numb, and dying inside,
i take my anger out on my wrists.
i hate myself for it.
i wish i would just die already,
the blood is dripping to slowly,
i feel like i can only make people
happy if im gone…. i guess this is it.
There is absolutly no reason to live anymore. i just want to die.
no one would even care if i died.
i wish i wasnt so numb.
im taking pill after pill to make myself feel normal everday,
but i just cant do it anymore.
there is just an emptiness that nothing can fill.
all of the drugs in the world couldnt fill it….
im done.
Hi.. my history is not really about suicide, but i went very close to that, and sometimes i still think about it, but i know i wont succeed.
Sorry for my english, my main lenguague is portuguese, and i’ll try my best here to express my feelings, or whatever this is.
I mean i dont feel nothing about the world, i dont feel nothing, really, i just try to picture myself in every kind of life and i just dont get excited about anything, i look around and i picture big zeros, like nothing matters.
Everything can happen to me, that i wont care.
I get angry all the […]
Life seems to be getting harder and harder to live. Emotionally I feel destroyed. Sometimes I don’t think that I can go on. I feel like my life is a mess because of the decisions that I have made. It hurts so bad. I have a young son that depends on me. He needs me but I feel worthless. I don’t think I can take anymore heartbreak, nor do I want to. I havn’t felt joy in so long. My depression stays with me day and night. I feel like the walking dead and that I’m being punished or something. I want to live […]
for about 5 years now i have had a struggle with depression, and only in the past 2 years or so have people found out about it. i’ve attempted to kill myself several times but never found the strangth to do it.
when people first found out about my depression they where absolutely shocked. It didn’t make sense to them, i was always the one helping other people with their problems. Hell i wanted to be a social worker or child psychologist for the sole reason of helping people with those problems. But now…. now everything just looks bleak.
today after a fairly minor argument […]
No one really cares at the end. of it all. Everyday I wake up I wish to die. Of course I want to do it in a painless way. I heard if you jump like off a cliff your body passes out so thats a good one..right? Or overdose on perkasets because I heard it stop your breathing and you go in a peacful sleep
I want this more than anything to die. Please leave a comment. My only fear is that I will live this horrible life.
So back to the me showinq my social worker my scars.Well now I showed my scars to my caseworker and he’s basically tellinq me that If I’m not qoinq to the hospital that I should qo to depression meetinq’s/qroups If there Is any.Do any of yall attend qroups for depresion?I really wanna qo so I can qo back to school and learn Instead of start smokinq In the morninq.Next week I’m qoinq to see my theropist to see any other alternatives.So to my oriqinal question does anyone qo any depression qroups???
I’m so alone, I really want to go back to old habits. i don’t really know why?
All i know is that my razorblade would look so good in my wrist right now, i’ve been quite depressed lately? i don’t know why…. i thought things were getting better. maybe they are but i just can’t see it…i really need help. But if you ask me that i would probably deny it, i have such a big thing about germs at themoment, my brother is ill so im terrified to be around him….
I Can’t Cope With This Anymore….:/
<3.
I remember the cold knife under my throat. I remember the masked man on top of me, thrusting, panting and his red eyes, forcing me to look at him all the time. I remember the hysterical laughter after it happened, when I went to see my friends. This date no one knows about it except of the shrink. I am now a twisted 25 year old woman/girl.. still fighting the demons and oh so willing to give up.
It all happned 3 days prior to my 18th birthday. Somewhere not far from home, where the water is always cool during summer and shady places. Somewhere I […]
I just feel so alone now. No one listens to me and they just dismiss my problems. I’ve never felt this hurt before, i’m actually feeling physical pain now. I hate myself and the way i look and everything about me. I wish that i could just help everyone out and just dissappear. i cry every day now and it’s just steadily getting worse. I cryed today at school, i just broke down and couldn’t stop. I try to hold everything inside and the more i hold in the worse i feel. I can’t take this anymore. I feel like everything is closing in on […]
I’m not going to kill myself, but everyday I wake up and hope today will be the day I finally get to die.
What am I afraid of?
I guess the feeling that I am completely alone and that there was nobody to help me. In that moment, I felt all the other times in my life when I had been left alone and in pain. It felt like a knife was jabbing into an open wound on my chest. I could barely breathe, My sadness was so deep that it blinded me to any other realities. My biggest fear has surfaced. I believed that I would be stuck forever in the empty, painful feeling of my loneliness.
I am feeling so depressed that it seems the only way to relieve the depression will be to commit suicide. I don’t want to die but there is nothing I find joy in despite having so many things to be happy about. My body constantly heats up and I get cold sweats. I cannot take it anymore.
I’m sorry for those who left replies on my Wonderland post. I had accidentally deleted it. Thank you those who did, and those who took the time to read it, thank you to you too. Its the next day but I’m scared to leave my room, for fear he’ll be out there to yell my ear off and make me feel less again… I know he loves me because he still lets me stay at the house and drive my mom’s old car… but.. Sometimes, it just seems like all he does is shout at me for everything… he’s coping, and I can’t do anything […]
its been over a week since i burned myself…its the first time since i started. im so happy but i have nobody to tell without them judging me…so i thought id let you guys know:)
“Enough is enough i can’t go on……”
I’m nearly fort-two, and suddenly i realized that if i was to die right now nobody would know. I have always felt this loneliness inside me since being a young child but until now i have never understood what lonely really was.
I’m going to end my life. I have tried several times before but failed in my attempts. I think if i try one more time i would get it right. I’ve searched the net every day looking for different ways to end it all, now i know i’ve been doing it all wrong. That’s why i keep failing.
I […]
It seems on this web site I am in good company as the comments I have read here I can relate to and it’s been so long since I could relate to anything. Â I have been on anti depressants for 10 years. The last few weeks I have hit the end of my rope. Â I cannot cope. Â I am now planning my suicide which will most likely be an overdose and it is the only thought I can gleam comfort from, the knowledge that my destiny is in my control and that all the fighting will soon be over. Â I have 3 children and they […]
My mom died just last year. My dad is still coping with it, doing so much as to order us to not ever go into his room. I’m human, and my brother was hogging the bathroom. So, I went and used it. I get home from my job and my dad starts yelling at me. I naturally can only squeak out the words ‘I’m sorry’.
My mom said that whenever I get scared, I hide in my own little world, my wonderland… my dad has been scaring me more and more, makimg me feel worthless. I’m almost 20, but I can’t leave because I don’t […]
I wasn’t able to get to sleep last night until after three. Â And since I took a nap after I left class early today (couldn’t focus on the lecture and could barely hold back the tears), I’m not sure if I’ll get any sleep tonight. Â If only I could actually use this time to be productive, like maybe start reading the book for which I have to write an essay on for Tuesday.
If Amber were still alive, I’d be on the next fucking plane to see her. Â I’d drop everything. Â I wouldn’t care if it would set me back another semester or if it meant […]
if you’ve ever looked on a color wheel, and if you look at it hard enough
it will strike you
that the most diverse and abundant colours there are to perceive
are neither the primary colors nor the secondary colors, but the differing tertiary shades
of browns and greys.
and if you were to take a random photograph of the world around you
you will often find
that unless you engineer the scene to bring out the vivid
or fiddle with the hues or turn the saturation up
all you will get are the browns and greys at different intensities
which form the highlights and […]
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