Archive for March, 2012

What happened on the night of march 23rd?

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

i did not die, which I assume a few of you thought since I never ended up getting back on this site until now.  I was deceived and betrayed. To make a long story short, I called jackie’s house, she told me she wanted to be best friends with me and that she truly cared […]

Why Am I Still Alive?

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

I don’t have any purpose. I am not cared for, or serve any importance. I’m fucked up. I think I’m going to do it. I’m going to finally finish what I started, and kill myself.

dark

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

I hate waking up to a new day. I loath the way people smile in the mornings. I can’t stand the sun shining, too much light. I pass the day watching the clock, waiting for the daylight to end. Darkness brings peace. Darkness brings quiet. In the dark, problems fade.

Look at me

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

Dress me from the bottom Work you’re way up high And look at me Look me in the eyes See my past See my pain See my actions As I wane I want to forget Forget it all As I tumble as I fall Now look at me All around How do I look? Do […]

Let it f*cking end (L.I.F.E.)

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

I wish i had the courage to die, i wish i werent such a wimp and would just do the deed.  I honestly can’t find a reason to live anymore. Any help i get is just a waste, any ‘hope’ story is just depressing. Everything is depressing. I just can’t take it. I can’t be […]

Those long walks

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

You know those long walks I go on at night? Oh wait… no they don’t know about it because they won’t listen. But do you know what I think about? I think about how horrible a person I am. If I am such a horrible and frustrating person, then I deserve to die and I […]

What if ?

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

What if I told you I don’t belong here? He asked, what do you mean, here at school or on this world? I answered with on this world He said he was scared I was scaring him He didn’t know what to say He asked me if I was talking about suicide I told him […]

i cant stand you, i need you

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

she was like a mom to me, a figure i never had before,i loved her when she was gone, and i hated her when she was around, she was either in an over protective mood were she drove me crazy, or in a cool person mood, were you could tell her anything and not be […]

Sometimes

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

Some days, the fog seems to lift and I begin to see hope for my future But I still hate the sunny days It’s only the cloudy days for me Just without the fog My brains seems to step up the to the plate And I can concentrate on something again But some days, I […]

Adam (Actually this title can be replaced)

Saturday, March 31st, 2012

(Written with a shattered suicidal heart) If I could go back in time to when you asked me out I’d look at you and say of course, without a doubt The kids at school can laugh the kids at school can stare but they just dont know the love of ours is rare I don’t […]