It is not going to get better. It is actually going to get better and worse. It is going to fluctuate like the temperature does during the year. Or the grades of a collection of students. Or the color of sky at dusk and dawn.
There are no guarantees. There is not a happily ever after. It does not work that way. Even if you expend 100% effort and 100% faith what you want still may not happen. Then again it may happen exactly as you choose. Or it may happen in a totally different fashion. The only thing you can do is keep going forward.
Acts seen as harmful do get rewarded sometimes. And helpful acts do result in punishment in many cases. And sometimes kindness results in pleasure and cruelty results in pain. Balance may exist as a universal concept, but on a smaller scale it is just wishful thinking. Otherwise we would not have people in this world whose whole lives are almost pure suffering. Some who know nothing else but. And some people in the world seem to live a golden existence. Very little suffering at all. That is just as possible.
Life has wonders and blunders.
People will sell you symbolism and spiritual rhetoric to get you to hang on. If it works for you go with it.
My recommendation is that you look inside yourself for the strength and purpose to carry on despite what happens. Check out Albert Camus. Has some very good reasons for saying just do it. Ride the rollercoaster and enjoy the journey. Reach inside and pull out that inner animal and let its power keep you surviving. Jump into a phone booth and let your inner hero out. Because unlike fairy tales, real heroes take their lumps and keep fighting. Even Superman got defeated in several different ways. And many real life heroes died for their cause.
And to the youth, you are not yet master of yourself. Your brain is still growing, your biological systems are still in flux. You are still under the control of your parents. You are still living in a part of reality that you have very little control over. So stay around at least for a few decades into adulthood to see what happens when you get your freedom.
Young ones, keep living past the point where your homones and growing pains are magnifying everything you experience. Does this invalidate your existence? No. Just means there is considerably more past one’s maturity. When one can actually choose how to live rather than it be chosen for them. Where bullies still exist, but their power is made weaker by how things work.
To all reading this…
There are some people who truly want to die. But what I’ve seen here and other places is that many more want an end to the pain and suffering. And while death does that, it also ends pleasure and benefits. The only real way to actually feel something positive is to keep living. To keep striving…to keep reaching…to keep walking…to keep trying…to keep running.
There is aid out there. There are solutions to lessen your struggle. There are reasons and purposes to living if you want to hold them in your heart.
Going forward doing your best to do no harm to others and help who you can on the way. Even though the mountain is tough, you have to climb it to eventually enjoy the view from the top.