Thanks to everyone that replyed last night. I was so desperate and I don’t think I could have made it through the night. I was too determined to end it. I slept all day today and I’m a little better now.
I can’t believe I finally posted here. Last night is  still a haze, I’m a bit dizzy now too. Been on my own for so long, I’ve been staying in this house for far too long. I’m not too good with words but I just wanna thank you all! 🙂