heartbroken
July 31st, 2012 by Chantel GastonIm a 18 year old girl that seems to have the perfect life but its really far from it… I’ve had depression for 4 years… I used to drink every night trying to drink away all the pain of life… all I’ve ever wanted was to fall in love n get married young… n I’ve always had problems with my family n friends… I’ve put myself in some bad places… n for a while I became happy after meeting this guy we have been together for 3years but for the past year I have fell out of love with him… I’ve been trying to fall back in love but just dnt seem to b able to do so… we fight a lot but he’s a great guy but we have our problems… but all I do is think bout the future n know he will make a good husband n father n really does love me. But i feel like i cant always talk to him n like i have to hide stuff from him…He has had a hard life n I feel nad for him… he tells me that im the best thing that’s ever happened to him n ik he needs me… but the truth is im in love with someone else…n this other guy makes me so happy n understand me n really cares n says he loves me to…we r just friends right now but both of us want more… but he is in the army n idk if I can leave where I live to follow him even tho I really want to… we have talked bout being together n he wants to marry me…I’ve known this guy for 3&1/2 years n I’ve liked him since I met him but didnt know how to tell him n we became best friends n about a year and half ago he told me he’s liked me since he met me. The way this guy makes me feel is amazing but I dnt wanna ruin a good thing with the other guy for nothing n I do love my bf but more as a friend than a husband. Idk what to do…ifbi choose my bf idk if ill ever b happy but if i choose the other guy I could b loosing a lot. Idk which is true love…
Advice please????
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Taking risks is what life it about. My suggestion would be to make what makes YOU happy. go talk to your boyfriend and explain to him everything, he won’t take it easy, no one would. But you shouldn’t have to be in a relationship if you aren’t happy. If he truly loves you he will understand that.
Thank u…I’ve just never been one to take a risk like that…Ive always tried playing it safe…i just am scared of screwing my life up again…I finally got it back on track after messing it up…n this depression is getting really hard to deal with…I have bad thoughts all the time b my bf now doesn’t even kno bc I dnt feel like I can tell him…
You are too young to feel this despair. It will get better, dear young girl.
It doesn’t sound to me like you should even think about marrying your bf Chantel. You are too young and there are clearly problems in the relationship in any case. Give yourself some time to figure out what you want out of life and a relationship.Zx