Always feeling sad.
Always feeling out of place.
Always feeling wrong.
Always feeling useless.
Never be happy.
Always feeling unloved.
Always feeling lousy.
Always feeling unwanted.
Why I live?
Always feeling sad.
Always feeling out of place.
Always feeling wrong.
Always feeling useless.
Never be happy.
Always feeling unloved.
Always feeling lousy.
Always feeling unwanted.
Why I live?
32yo female. I feel so empty, and don’t see a reason to carry on. I’m scared, I’m angry, I’m heartbroken, I’m bitter and I’m incredibly lonely.
I woke up around 3:00am trembling in fear after having one of my worst nightmares ever… my arms and legs still shaking and this feeling of pain in my chest won’t go away… falling down spiral…
hi everyone.. im michael and i sometimes think about ending it.. alot.. i feel alone in this country.. and im scared to be myself.. i dont have any motivation to live for.. and i dont have a gf.. and im scared of girls and everyone.. and everyone looks at me funny and i worry what others think.. i overthink things and get depressed.. so i want to end it.. but im scared to do that i want to get away from my mom and i have no goals in life.. i cant post stuff on facebook. because they banned me.. so i want to end […]
I always put on a fake mask, and try to act like I’m the happiest person in the world. I just put on a fake smile when I am actually dying. I am so tired to pretend, so I decided to take it off. It’s been so long that I finally decided to take it off, but I don’t know the person under it. Now it seems that no one cares about the girl under the mask. I don’t know who I am, and nobody does either. So I put on the mask on again. I want to die so badly, but I am scared […]
im trying to force my way through today to be positive, my friend recently moved out of my house and she lives quiet a way away now and i really miss her, my brother also moved even furthur away recently. i really miss being able to easily hang around with them, they were my reasons for waking up, they still are, its just abit more difficult. i feel kind of lost, i like being around people when the black cloud of deppresion isnt horribly distorting who i am. so im going to try and go outside today, even if its just walking around in my […]
Hello.
This is my note. This is the only place my note will ever be, because I’m too much of a coward to actually go through with this.
I’m nothing, I mean nothing to myself. I would really rather disappear into nothing. Scatter myself into a thousand and one atoms, floating peacefully in space. Instead I’m stuck here, in this colourless hell. The only person i can talk to won’t listen, I can’t tell her anyway. I love her too much to let her bear this.
Anyway, my name is Sian. I’m nearly sixteen, I have blonde hair and brown eyes. I’m a dancer, that’s how I define […]
Ive decided to go get a rope tomorrow from the hardware shop instead of going to see my doctor. Everyday im getting worse, ive been on various types of antidepressants and they have all made me even more anxious and fucked up like i was on a pill or something. Im done trying to get better, I dont give a fuck about what happens to me anymore. Ive got a bunch of pills i plan on dropping with some alcohole before i jump.
My options are as follows :
ramming my car into a tree at high speed
taking all of these pills […]
I’m realizing where’s no reason to keep indulging with procrastination. Having another week or another day of just letting time flow is meaningless.
Searching for the best method is a way to tell yourself you’re not really ready yet. I just settled for the simplest thing to put together and got a rope. Right now I’m writing notes for the only two people I care they get a note, I scrapped my idea of writing notes for everyone else, it’s not worth the hassle.
I’m giving myself 48 hours to accomplish this goal, it’s more than enough time. If you don’t read anything else it’s because I […]
I’ve put a lot of effort into doing right by the people I’m close to. I have been far from perfect in those efforts. Mostly I’ve failed entirely. I guess the thing is, though, that I’ve tried to mend every mistake I’ve made. I’ve apologized, acknowledged my screw-ups and done my best to avoid future incidents.
In times when I haven’t been the one to screw up, I’ve been too forgiving of people. People who have decided that I am the kind of person who can toyed with, walked all over, and left to wait endlessly for fulfillment. People always let you down. That’s what I’ve […]
i just don’t feel like being here anymore! i have to friends i can talk to, nobody cares about me or what i have to say! what’s the point in being here?..because i sure don’t see one! everything is soo low, i’m having urges to cut, i’m trying to be strong and not do that, but i don’t think i can be strong enough anymore!
Hello all. I’m sitting here at my dinning room table weeping so hard. The reason is because I’ve searched intensley on an answer for the last few wks. I’ve talked to people including a therapist, some friends I kno in person, a couple from this site and even my Pastor. I’m 32 and have no relationships. I do everything alone and I can’t fucking take it anymore. I feel most have blocked me out. Let me say I was going to go thru with it last nite but the law got involved sumwat, plus I didn’t have all the supplies I needed. I’m now sitting […]
Even though I think that it is ok for me  if I wanna die right now, the idea of someone else committing suicide makes me feel so sad!!
I hate myself i hate living i have let everone down and i fell like i will never chnage or improve i just wanna end it all
I posted a while back explaining a lot of what has been happening that has driven me back into a depression i had finally escaped last summer. I’ve been trying to figure out who i am to see if maybe i can convince myself that i actually deserve this life i’ve been given. But i honestly don’t know who i am, and i don’t think i ever did. I put a mask on when i was young so no one would see that i was slowly dying inside, and i lost whoever i was to this mask. I feel almost no emotions anymore, i force […]
I \m just tired of living tired of being told what i can and cant do tired of not slepping tired of meds i, just fuck tired
I always feel I’m supposed to be at another place in another time. I never belong, never fit in. Most of my “friends” hate me. My parents work all the time. I always feel so alone. Most times, I would just cry myself to sleep. I’m really scared, scared of the future. I really wish I find a place where I actually belong.
I wish I could see life differently.Things would be easier if I didn’t see life as being meaningless.
I’m really curious what are other people’s views on life.
Just a little preface, I am a 26 year old male who works for the biggest telecommunications company in Canada (I cant say who….) as an Install/Repair technician. I am only mentioning this because it will tie together further on.
Well, I had this one REALLY bad day, and I had suicidal thoughts which would not go away. I wanted to die, just like most other days… I have this one way bridge near my house, and I figured it would be good to hang from. It is a one way bridge, and a few people I know would see me there… The bridge is for […]
funny thing is, i survived six years of heroin addiction. i think i miss the pain of the needle going in more than the opiates hitting my brain. something about pain and pleasure being inexorably tied together that makes one less real without the other. Was listening to Trent Reznor’s Hurt earlier and was struck by the truth of the lyrics
i hurt myself today….to see if i still feel….i focus on the pain….the only thing thats real
if i could start again….a million miles away…i would keep myself….i would find a way
it gives me a strange sense of comfort to think that after the deed is […]
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