Archive for August, 2012

Nunca?

Friday, August 31st, 2012

No has tenido esa sensación en la que… Bueno ni siquiera es una sensación… Ni siquiera sabes si lo sientes, si existe… Ahhh todo un embrollo en tu cabeza, esperas despertar, esperas que todo sea un sueño o pesadilla, esperas que si todo es cierto haya una realidad alterna a la cual transportarte, simplemente esperas. […]

So, life sucks?

Friday, August 31st, 2012

Life sucks. I’m in high school, I’m fat, have acne, a huge nose, and I’m ugly. On top of that I’m shy and quiet-I don’t really like talking that much and people always take that as me being rude. Even my dad is embarrassed and says that I need to get out of my shell. […]

Still on the Coaster and I’m falling down

Friday, August 31st, 2012

Today is one of my down days. A down day is a day I give myself when I’m so tired and full of energy at the same time. I’m sad but can’t express. Happy but can’t express. It’s a day I force myself into the depths to force myself to release this sewer ride i’m […]

Friday, August 31st, 2012

shes lying i know she is. shes so pathetic. i fucking cant stand it much longer..

I just don’t care.

Friday, August 31st, 2012

So… I’ve been thinking about this for a while. And I really wouldn’t care if I died. Even if it was slow and painfull. Please tell me if this ishealthy. Because I just don’t care about life or death.   it’s all the same.

Just want it over

Friday, August 31st, 2012

don’t care about painless, etc. I’ll pay the price for killing myself. Now – I’m getting my affairs in order and just hope there are no hangups with disposal of me (body) and or belongings. I want the hopelessness and the farce over- can’t put on “a face” any longer.

Friday, August 31st, 2012

I think maybe if I let it all out I’ll feel better, Maybe if I write it I’ll see how ridiculous it is and I won’t do it. I’m 22 years old and I’m considering suicide. In the past month My parents first and foremost split after 30 years of marriage. My dad moved into […]

again

Friday, August 31st, 2012

i did more drinking today with my friends i did half a shot because i was meeting up with my mom shortly and needed to be sane… about an hour ago they wanted me to come back and i said no, not because i was not in the mood trust me i did want to […]

I wish…

Friday, August 31st, 2012

I wish i could show what i really am feeling ,unstead of a fake smile always on my face.. I wish i had the nerve to go up to him all these years to tell him that i liked him.. I wish i could help the family ..and stop being the one who is always […]

We fade in to darkness.?

Friday, August 31st, 2012