WHY

Even though my friends say its ok ,tha ti am the way i AM .I cant take it anymore .I have thought of ending it but when i think of dying a shiver comes over my shoulder and tears come to my eyes even thought my ”stupid problems” may not seem like much these small things greatly affect me .My family even my freinds see my as a happy go lucky person but im not like that its just a cover for them not to thik ima freak ,i wonder how long i can keep it up .