Archive for October, 2012

Losing him…

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

A guy I dated way back in the day just killed himself the other night. It’s been so hard for me to accept, but at the same time I’m thinking he had the right idea. I’m tired of being in so much pain. I’ve been through so much in my life and every day just […]

Worst. Halloween. Ever.

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

All my “friends” ditched me this halloween. So I thought I would tag along with my mom and siblings when they went. Turns out my mom picked today of all days to be a total bitch and left me crying in the car while they went trick or treating. I feel so alone! My highschool shut […]

My will to live is depleting

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

I’ve been suicidal for two years, but during those two years I had reasons to keep going. Yeah, those reasons were few and far between, but they were there. I have virtually no reason to live anymore. I can’t drag people down. My friends – they don’t know about this. They didn’t much know about […]

Thinking Out Loud

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

These two girls started trying to have a conversation with me today. They were asking me why I was always so depressed and what they could do to help. They were being very nice. I guess they figured I wasn’t a bad guy? Who knows. Anyway… One of the girls started talking about how she […]

I don’t know..

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

I have good friends. A great family. So why do I always feel like I am completely alone in this little, depressing bubble of mine.

Leave!

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

Man I am just…tired of everyone leaving me, my friend died, my therapist is quit her job and didn’t even let me know, my friend won’t even speak to me….I miss them…

Tired of This

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

I am currently living with my dad and my sister. My mom is in a different city because my mom and dad are divorced. I don’t get to see her much because of school. The school I’m currently enrolled in is really strict and I’ve already gotten written up for things that aren’t my fault. […]

im just tired …

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

While searching “how to kill yourself” I came upon this site. I debated over the fact on wether I should join. Then I did … Well to begin I would like to explain why I was searching that in the first place. Idk I’m just Tired of my whole life completely . This is my […]

cuts

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

I cut myself today it was kinda was a way to numb the pain and help me forget about everything on my mind all the sadness I was feeling but now I’m just left with the cuts and I’m trying to hide them so no one notices I just want too stop feeling so sad […]

What’s the big deal

Wednesday, October 31st, 2012

I was just thinking. Why do people guilt trip over cutting themselves? Who the fuck cares what other people think? (Well, maybe that’s more of my perspective.) It’s non-lethal, it hurts less than getting a tattoo, you just don’t get a pretty picture at the end. I mean, for pain itself, there would be constructive […]