It’s the one thing that i’ve always wanted to be. Pretty and perfect. When i was a little girl, i was pretty and happy. No one every told me that i’m ugly or did anything to make me sad. But now, I’ve turned into some ogre just wanting to burst out. Every time i see someone pretty, i get really jealous and just wanting to hide away. All of my friends are really pretty and it’s hard to know that you’re the odd one out, the only one that’s ugly. On those 2 days of the week, when i have P.E (sport days), i get really scared, i embarrass myself so much when i do even simple things like running or even lifting a limb. I always thought that if i stayed still, people won’t look at me. It’s hard though when you can’t just escape these times at all.
Sometimes, for some reason, i thought that guys had liked me. But then i’d think like- “Why would they like you, you’re just a stupid, ugly thing.” I’ll always be a loner and an idiot with no life. I’ll always be a virgin too. I always thought that maybe when i’m older, i’ll be pretty, but sometimes i just think i’ll be like this forever. No amount of make up or anything can cover up this hideous face, and even body. I always thought committing suicide was the answer to get out of this thing. I’ve always been alone with thise situation, no one is as self- consious as me.