Archive for December, 2012

what a year ><

Monday, December 31st, 2012

this year was the toughest one I have had in my life. i dropped out of college twice and was hospitalized 4 times. i have experienced the lowest points in my life this year. but i have also realized many important things. i have grown up. i have gotten closer to my husband. he is […]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Monday, December 31st, 2012

“happy” new year

Monday, December 31st, 2012

Well, it probably voids all rules of this site to say this. But tonight, i’m going to kill myself. I’m not here to get help as such. I’m seventeen. And it’s new year. And I’m drunk. Although i said i’m not here for help, i won’t stop anybody who tries, because i know full well […]

Another poem for you all.

Monday, December 31st, 2012

If I die would you cry? Would you suddenly realize? I was here, for you. Can you be there for me too? The streets right there and the forests not far, would you care if i ran in front of a car? This cliff im on can only last so long. I think it’s time […]

i don’t know why..

Monday, December 31st, 2012

but i always find myself coming back to this site. i try my best to stay positive and be happy, but it never works out.. i also can’t seem to stay away from this site,  i always end up coming back .   anyone else feel the same?

Another year of being invisible… Joy

Monday, December 31st, 2012

So before the clock strikes twelve I have to say if the new year is as bad as the last I won’t make it I will give up I’m tired of being invisible and people acting like what I think doesn’t matter, It seems every-time I have a little hope or happiness that someone comes and takes […]

Lack of color.

Monday, December 31st, 2012

is it time for me too go yet? can I fade away too black and disappear? I am a lack of color. I have no reason too stay everything is just black and white too me. sometimes there are hints of color but mostly there are very short and if not rare. I am sinking […]

And the clock struck twelve…

Monday, December 31st, 2012

Its passed midnight where I am and 2013 has started. I can only say happy new year to those of you who wish to find happiness, but to people like me it signifies the beginning of a new course of hurt, heartache and that longing feeling of wanting to escape this place. I’m pretty drunk […]

I Want to Change This Year

Monday, December 31st, 2012

So it’s basically 2013 and I give up on those new years resolution. I know I won’t follow them, and if I do it won’t last. I know the number one thing is to stop hating myself and I just can’t, not alone. Number two on my list is to get more friends, REAL friends. […]

I miss Sinine

Monday, December 31st, 2012

What ever happened to that ball of sunshine. She always cheered me up. Happy new year Sinine where ever you are. Happy new year SP. I wish you all luck and happiness in the year. Ruins