Archive for February, 2013

sigh…

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

I feel ignored…even by you guys

My way out, my confession

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

I must have been around 8 or 9 when my mother first brought me to a psychologist. I had to draw a tree and had to talk to the lady. Obviously I must have been depressed but I didn’t know the word for it. When I was 21 I did three suicide attempts over a […]

It all hurts

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

I look up and see the clouds above me. I feel pain and only pain when the rain falls. It feels like acid eating at my skin. I feel pain with every key stroke on this post. I know you don’t get it. IT ALL HURTS. I feel pain when see my phone, a piecing […]

Read, please, I want you to know how im feeling.

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

yeah, so this is the first time im posting something on this site, 3 weeks ago, my friend Steve suicided in the cafeteria, everyone saw it, blood on the wall behind him, gun on the ground, I stayed in the cafeteria for 3 hours, then a teacher told me to go and relax. Im moving […]

kinda makes me wanna puke rainbows.

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

spiral, a downward spiral. those two words: my life. I was going to kill my self, jump off a tower SURPRISE! i pass out and wake up to find out I have cancer (however the hell that works) then I find out that…SURPRISE! the cancer is spreading. (although I have to admit sstarving the cancer […]

Its got to stop somewhere

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

this is messing with  my thought process. The endless cycle of bad, then good, then worse.. I dont like making decisions that i know will hurt my other relationships, like with my friends. After 6 days on break, where i was out of energy to really think about anything, and have everyone repeatedly tell me […]

The mess in my head.

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

I don’t like my life. I don’t like the fact that there is a daily routine which I dont like, yet I am forced to follow because of society. I can see most people are not happy, and only pretend. I’m sick of fake smiles and all the judgement. School is very stressful, I hate […]

my little secret place.

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

I’ll start of with this, im a girl, a teenager, who’s constantly thinking about death, has panic attacks very often, loses control of myself at night sometimes, i just love the idea of causing harm to herself. but these things..I don’t want them to be a part of me anymore, i want to move on. […]

I just did it

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

I took the pills….

I think I’m a selfish brat who deserves to be hated.

Thursday, February 28th, 2013

Two summers ago my dad died by an accident. Since then I’ve been fearing everything. I’m afraid of losing my friends and my other family members, I fear that they die too, that they got hurted, that they fall in depression, that they do harm to theirselves… I cry very often just thinking about what […]