March 8th, 2013by whateveridc
Same old boring bad background like everyone else:
-My sister died when I was younger, and I still feel like it was my fault that she died.
-My parents split
-Living in poverty since then
- Haven’t lived in the same house for over a year in like 6 years, Â eviction has met us more than once
-Don’t have anyone to trust
This year was the first time I really started to think about suicide seriously. Â I was talking to the schoolÂ psychologistÂ about it and all she did was question me, “Do you have a plan?”, “What steps would you take?”. Â Then she made me call a hotline and I for real did not want to. Â I was kind of pissed. Â Then she made me promise to tell 2 people before I did it..it was her and the school counselor. Â Eventually they went behind Â my back and called my mom in because I gave myself a concussion by hitting my head. Â I was so angry, butÂ of coarseÂ they see it as more symptoms of depression. Â They didn’t understand me. Â Really ever since them I haven’t talked to them. Â I see too many people just doing things to get attention. Â I’m sick of it. Â That’s why I bottle up my emotions. Â I think that I am now a misanthropist…I hate humans. Â I’m not kidding. Â And I’m not hypocritical, because I hate myself also.