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March 15th, 2013 by apmmxxxIm Anastasia, Im 16 years old and Im not happy as the other 16 years old girls of my school. I used to live in a small town, my life was ok. I had a nice group of friends, i loved my school, i was doing good in my classes, there were boys who wanted to go out with me but i always said no, just because i like being called hard to get. My life was ok. At 15 years old i moved to Montreal. Thats when my life really really changed. I went to this school and my first year was ok, i met this two girls: Anne and Alena (we are all immigrants) i love them both and without them i really don’t know what would i been doing right now. Me and Anne are bestfriends. She is honestly the best girl friend i have ever had. I’m speechless with this girl. Shes so gorgeous, funny, outgoing… Its impossible not to notice her! And then theres me… Im ok, i don’t think I’m ugly but i don’t think I’m as pretty or funny or outgoing as Anne. Anne has every boy attention. Alena is pretty sexy and shes almost 19 so she has some attention too. Anne had date with so many guys since shes here, well shes gorgeous its impossible for her not to have a boy calling her to ask her whats is she doing the weekend or idk… Alena just brook up with her boyfriend for almost 5 months and shes already talking with another guy. And theres me, the only one who has never had a boyfriend, who’s still virgin, who has only kissed two guys in her entire life and who barely gets attention from a fucking bird. They are honestly my only two friends… Im invisible to that school. No one talks to me, no one jokes around with me, no one cares about me. Im honestly a loser. If it wasn’t for Anne i would already have killed myself, cause honestly I’m not happy at all. My friends in my natal country forgot about me. I only talk to at least 5 and thats it. And theres this guy… Cristian. He’s like the sweetest and funniest guy but he lives in my country (Russia). Our history is pretty cute lol. We started as stupid friends, he used to like (i don’t know i he stills) my ex bestfriend in Russia, Irina. With the time we enjoyed to talk to each other, we got along more we started saying cute stuff, we do Skype almost every day, we have cute nicknames, we get jealous… We act like the cutest couple, but without been one. I know i like him, its pretty obvious but i don’t know i he likes back as i like him… honestly he’s the reason why i smile. Anyways, he’s the only guy who have ever made me feel this way… No one here has ever even tried to have something with me. Not even a girl. No one. Im nobody to everybody. I see how Anne and Alena are so outgoing, how the have friends and shit and theres me, writing a letter to you guys cause i feel so miserable with my life. All i want is my life back. I want to be with Cristian, i want to feel loved and wanted, i want a nice group of friends like i used to have, i want to be someone again. I want to stop being so insecure and shy, i want to stop judging Anne just because she has the attention i want. I want a life. Cause honestly this is not what i want to remember from my teen years.
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You are 16, don’t be a rush to lose your virginity, from your picture you are really pretty, you shouldn’t be so hard on yourself. You shouldn’t think about killing yourself, it isn’t easy being shy, but you should be confident in yourself. I promise you that there is soo many girls that would kill to be pretty like you. You are so young, you should try to be a little patient. Even if you are horny as fuck, that is so natural. You have great friends it seems like, count your blessings, you seem to be real lucky and blessed=) I am not just saying that. Hey, if you ever wanna chat or talk to someone feel free to email me. can get me at wingkongexchange@hushmail.com.
i feel a bit inadiquite with this response, because you wrote such a nice long detailed story. And yes, I did read it all.
but you simply sound a bit insecure. now I sure do not “know” you. but from what you wrote and seeing your picture – I am confused on why you would be insecure. It seems perfectly clear that you are a bright girl. I don’t know if you are funny or have a sense of humor (which is an attractive quality to many people)… so I can not comment on that. And physically (if you dont mind me saying) you are a VERY lovely girl.
So, I guess what I am saying to you is dont worry so much. You have a lot of positives and the guys WILL coming running to you at some point. And I am very surprised they haven’t been running to you already.
Hang in there.
If you want to be happy again, and stop suicidal thoughts, you need to stop putting on a duck-face, thank you.