I don’t know what it is, but there’s this weird feeling in my chest. It’s painful. But no like physically painful, just painful. I don’t know what to do anymore. I am afraid to die, but I don’t have help. There is no way I can ever get better. Well, I don’t know how to start. It’s never been this bad before. Never. And it’s like I wanted to come back to school, because i thought it was going to be easier, but it’s not. I can’t be at home. I can’t be at school. I don’t have anywhere to go. I’m lost.
I wish […]
March 2013
I guess a good place to start would be the beginning but I don’t really know where that is. I guess as a kid I always struggled fitting in, I wasn’t the same as everyone else and that was noticeable from a youngish age, I was always bullied in school for being different and was always being physically abused by the other kids. No one ever believed me when I’d tell them what was happening and thought it was all my fault for being so different and started punishing myself for it. At the age of 10 I started cutting and didn’t know that it […]
this is my first time ever talking about my suicidal feelings. i guess I should let you know about me. I’m 18 and I’ve been trying to kill myself since I was ten not sure what made me want to start but i’ve been trying ever since. Sometimes I’ll be “fine” for weeks and then i drop back to wanting to die or cut which can last for a few days or sometimes months. In total I’ve tried 12 times one was about 3 hours ago and shortly after started puking, my mom walked in the bathroom and asked if I was ok and i told […]
I really don’t know how to start this post, so, pieces can fall where they may.
I don’t know whether it’s wanting to be saved and know I’m loved because of somebody, or if I really just want a boyfriend/girlfriend/friend. I don’t know. I feel so confused. And conflicted. I just keep dreaming and needing for.. something. I’m not really sure what of yet. I can’t really decipher my dreams that well you know. Anyways, I just am feeling like I’m craving to be loved, touched, felt, understood by someone who truly cares and wants to know me, and all these things. Like, I have a whole list of things that I would feel if I were with somebody, and a […]
i am feeling so much better than i have the past months , so i have decided to take a break form this website it has helped me a lot and because i feel so much better i dont want to be cought up in my old problems , so i will be only on this website when i hit rock bottom again , i hope u all understand , i just didnt want people to thing if i wasnt on for a few weeks i hadnt done something dtupid , so byr for now 🙂 , i wi sh everyone of you good luck […]
didnt sleep at all , all i thought about was how bad today was going to be , just so happy i dont have school.
OK most of you dont know me in  person , so my mum and dad divorced when i was 6 and then when i was 7 my mum made me my sister move away from my dad because my grandpa was sick and my mum wanted to be with him a few years after that i started being bullied in school because i was different i wore glasses , i wasnt fat i weighed 110 pounds (just all the other girls […]
Wouldn’t it be nice if the world ends??
I’ve pretty much given up on suicide for the moment. I can’t put my family through it. I just dread the day when I’m too much for them to look after, because I can’t support myself.
The end of the world would be nice. At least it’s something I could get involved with. Oh well, wishful thinking.
I’m one of those people who can’t face the world. I can’t face people. I can just about talk to people online, unless they start to get to know me, which is when I usually back away because I can’t commit myself to […]
I began cutting in the 7th grade I was only 12. I don’t know why I did it. I just barley cut myself. I started everyday after that. I hide it no one ever saw my arms until the end of my 8th grade year. My mom found my journal and read it. She told me that I would be starting counseling. I started counseling. My mom checked my wrist every night and I would cut up my legs every night. The cuts got deeper and deeper I just need more and more. The blade pressed against my skin opening my skin and seeing blood […]
why am I not worth being loved ,,I’m tired of games and people that can’t be real
why lie  cheat and bs   ! lifes to sHort for drama  im saprised I haventtt  done it  lohna. I do love more than life. Sorry
i have always thought that this was all my fault i brought it upon myself because i want the same as everyone else since this all started i lost 3 stone because people told me i was ugly and discusting , i now weigh 6 stone and its still not good enough for those people …. but since i have joined this support page it has helped me to see that there are so many people out there who feel the same as me , i dont think i will be able to stop hurting myslef but one day i do hope i can get […]
I’m such a terrible person, just disgusting. I felt like ending it all today. I ruined my whole life… And I still continue to do it. and yet, I can’t help but to go back to the only option I have ever known. Smoke Cigarettes, A horrible thing. And Drinking it all away. i’m fucked up man. Forgive me….
And Hun, if you put the clues together at the end, and end up finding this , I Am So Sorry. At least you will understand some of my past, and why our future can not be allowed.
I made a Wish..
[SyKo]
this is so surreal i cant believe im doing this it was a dream now he is making it come true
I’ve tried to stop cutting and burning myself as much and as bad as I used to but it makes it so much worse.
People have started to see my scars and fresh cuts when I’m in dance or at the gym and I never know what to do so I’m trying not to cut as much as I used to.
I’ve started to self medicate and drink all the time to make up for it though and it’s really fucking me up.
i have seen so many life struggles on this page , so many brought tears to my eyes , last year my friends father commited suicide her younger brother found him , i have thought so many times , what if that was me that somebody found , i feel so lonely , i come home from school go straight to my room and i would just sit there and cry for hours , and then i would come downstairs and nobody would notice i was there or even gone ……….. i wonder would any of that change if i was gone for good
My family hates me and I have no friends. I’m not good enough for anyone. I haven’t had a real friend in two years. I lost all of my friends two years ago and I have no idea what the hell I did for them all to hate me. They just all stopped talking to me and now all the people I talk to are fake and talk shit about me but the only other choice I have is to be alone so I suck it up.
Two years ago my “best friend” wrote a note about me. She said that I was fat, had no […]
A lot has happened to me recently I joined a support group so that’s why I haven’t been posting as frequently and I saw the social worker at my school to get help that was an alright experience she called my mom and my mother didn’t really understand and told me I should just pray to God and also today I apologized to my friends whom I cut off only two of them replied and the reactions are fifty fifty one of them forgives me and the other is mad and even told me “why do you even bother apologizing?” the thing is if you […]
i dont really know where to start , first im nowhere near the state in my mind of thinking about suicide , but i care for those who are …. im 13 years old , im hurt and lonely , thats not right for a 13 year old , ok …. i guess it all started this year when i came back to school as it got more into the year i realised my ‘friends’ wernt really my friends , they have been posting things about me on websites calling me ugly and fat , i have began an obsession with being anorexic , people […]
after a year&half with my babyboii this is how it ended.*warnin im 14 hes 16*
Me&Ahmet
21st januray 2011 i met ahmet first time,we got ice cream&he chase me round the park tryin to get it on my nose&said if it was […]