Normally I wouldn’t wouldn’t do this type of stuff..
But I could use some advice from someone..
If you have a kik..
perfectly_dead is mine.
Normally I wouldn’t wouldn’t do this type of stuff..
But I could use some advice from someone..
If you have a kik..
perfectly_dead is mine.
you are here – but you aren’t.
the ultimate bliss may touch you, and yet, you’ll remain still and letargic. you won’t feel any happiness. nor pain. you’ll feel nothing. you’ll fell void. hollow.
you may want to dive into the world of displeasures to find out something new, something capable to break you monotonous and obvious routine. finding pleasure below the pleasure.
i used to love, when i hit the wall i learn to love violence, hate, and evil things. those things used to bring me the surprise of novelty, the flavor of something never tasted before. and it tasted good. it wouldn’t matter what the hell […]
That’s what I tell my fish when I get home from work!
It’s a shame to be human these days when so much is expected of us. We have to go through life pretending to be superior as a species when all we are is just food for thought.
If I was a fish, I wouldn’t consider anything a human had to say! I would just swim and eat and sleep when the light turns out. If only I could just be a fish, letting my owner take care of me till my short little life is over. Nothing more would be expected of me […]
is there a junkie here willing to help me to deal with my family?
i would like to know what kind of relationship this type of person has to his family.
it’s killing me.
all i want now is some money to buy drugs.
life is shit.
Its odd knowing you only have 840 hours left till you die….seems like a long time but not really……. the last September and October I’ll ever experience….. its not really a bad feeling….it leans more toward anxious…only regret that I have is that a Time Machine wasn’t invented during my lifetime…. or at least a machine that let you watch your memories as movies….. although there are a few things I’ll miss about life…..
NCIS
Cookies and cream Ice cream
My dog lexi
Halloween during childhood
The years 1998-2004
Ms.Lagrange
and Childhood…..
The end. I’ve found where I can free myself of this curse of a fucking life. There’s a place down south from where I live and a quiet little bridge over a fifty metre drop into one metre deep water. Short drop and a sudden drop, and it’s all over. Once everything hits absolute rock bottom, I know where I’m going. Why not do it now? Because, strangely enough, someone needs me right now. But me being expendable, once I’m no longer useful, I’ll have nothing left. Not even the bane of drawing breath.
And I can’t wait
I’m so sorry for hurting you. For making you hate me. For being a piece of shit. Today you turn 18. I wish I was there for that. You kept me sane, and I took it for granted. Now I’m alone, hated, wishing I weren’t alive. Â You kept me from dying, But I don’t have you anymore. It’s been just over 9 months since we parted, and I regret every day. I wish we never dated, that way I’d never fuck it all up. I’m so so sorry. You’ll never know how sorry I am. Please forgive me, or at least not wish I were […]
I hate pretending like I’m okay when every little thing reminds me of you.
I feel like a horrible person because I’ve tried finding someone new.
I cry myself to sleep at night and I’m afraid to turn off the light…
I’m afraid that I’ll see you, I usually do…
I miss everything about you…
I miss your eyes so blue…
I miss your smile and the light in your eyes,
I miss the way we talked all night…
I miss how our hands, mine so small compared to yours, still fit perfectly together…
I miss how you seemed so excited, when you found out […]
This is my second post on this blog. My first one had been back in April in 2012. I had even forgotten my username and password. Guess that should be considered a good thing. But it’s not. And it’s not because here I am again, and if I am here it means that all those thoughts are back. They’ve been back for a while though. Actually, they’ve never left. So much has happened since my last post. Things I could talk about forever but I am so tired.
I never wanted to be the crazy one. In fact, I never thought I would ever be. But […]
I wake up
to find you dead
I don’t believe
my broken head
I go to school
thinking you’re asleep
but through the day
I can’t help but weep
I feel dead when
I come home
seeing you there
my heart turns stone
I call a friend
scared and crying
She tells me you’re dead
I tell her she’s lying
Now there are cops
In our small home
they ask me questions
and invade our dome
I realize now
what this does mean
with these people around me
I let out a silent scream
It was valentines day
that you died of OD
I thought you were fine
but I guess […]
Here I am again. Posting another “blog”.. Expressing about all of inner “turmoil”..Telling a whole bunch of strangers what’s going on inside my head. Even though most of them, if not all of them, don’t care about the stuff I post about.
Even though I know this. I’m still going to post what I want/feel..
I fucking hate myself. I wonder all the time Why Im still here.. Â I dont need to be.
Fuck. No one cares..
I too have lost a love and still wish to be with her. she loves me too, but says she just cant be with me. Just watched the movie and want to die. Anyone want to be Wilson and shoot me?
Faded smile. It can say a lot, or it can say nothing at all. As a kid you have a smile that just brightens everyone’s day. But as you get older you may still have that smile and it may still brighten everyone’s day but the one person who needs it the most is you and your smile doesn’t help you. Years go by, friends get lost, deaths appear, heartbreaks… Things that as a kid never existed. Soon we are shown that our lives are in our own hands. That we just as much as others can take it away just like that. And soon […]
why is it so beautiful?
and full ugly inside.
there she comes! she’ll seduce you!
she will invite you to dress another hide.
and then, you sink into yourself
into all of yourselves.
you may want to die,
you surely want to live – but under Her hide.
i doubt reality.
and i accuse life of being a lie.
otherwise, how could?
how could it be so beautiful and fully ugly inside,
without being a lie?
to live is to lie.
you lie until the day that there’s no you
until the day you die.
I want you to think of something, but not just anything. About you. About you life. Ever wondered how many people around you actually care and how many are just people waiting for gossip. Or if the people you loved so very much would care if you just one day disappeared. See I recently discovered just how many people “care”. We try to hide the things we love the most, and that’s exactly what I did. For many years I had a best friend. Someone who knew everything about me and the one person I thought really cared. I chose not to see who she […]
I really miss that happy and funny smile
that laugh that come from the bottom of your heart.. now it’s different.. it’s a.. I don’t know what it is.. but nobody notice that..
sometimes I’m tired of getting drunk to feel that extremely happiness that I used to feel every second of my life.. it was always there.. that happiness was my best friend.. now I only have a few friends.. thousands of “Friends” and other thousands of haters (I think that fighting with them halp me to remember that happiness..)
I miss my smile..
Im will still waiting for that ***** because I’m tired […]
Suicide can never be accepted in society, at least not the way I see it right now. Of course I’m talking about the American society, I’m sure other country’s could care less if their people commit suicide.
I want cannabis to be legal world wide, that would be a great day to see. I’d be growing as much I could. But for now, society won’t fully accept cannabis for what it is.
How come when we can’t accept something as a society, we try to change it to be more acceptable for everyone?
Lets say “Johnny” wants to kill himself. He’s got no family or […]
I feel the need to run away. what do i do among them? its my hatred for them that’s the cause of my decline, i clearly see it now. i play games when exams are near, i don’t do what every sane person would do at critical moments, i deliberately miss opportunities…why? to bring my image down in their eyes, to not become great in front of them..that’s how i take revenge from them! i don’t know if it makes sense. they praised me a lot when i topped my school and got admission in one of the best colleges. on the surface i liked […]
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