I just do.
I’m not angry, or depressed.
I just think things have gone far enough for me, and I’m happy to take the next step, its no biggy.
Problem is I can’t see myself actually doing it, and I don’t know how long it will take to muster up the courage to do it. Maybe a few years? Maybe never, actually, is more likely.
Its a shame because every day I live is like one pointless extra day.
Anyway, hope everyone is OK.
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I want to die too. But, how?
You’re happy, not angry or depressed and You want to die because you feel like your days are pointless? This isn’t me trying to be rude, I just want to make sure I understand this
I just don’t see the point in being alive anymore I’ve done everything I need to do and that’s it..
I think hanging is the best way, just literally too lazy to set it all up.
Currently just spending each day talking myself round to doing it and trying to muster the courage up.
For some reason suicide is seen as some horrible terrible dramatic thing in society so no-one is going to help you do it.
Find something to do, my friend. You are still so young and happy at that! You think maybe you’re just really bored?
I am bored I suppose…but I can’t see the point in the cycle of finding something interesting then getting bored then finding something new then getting bored again, I’ve been doing it my whole life and it’s never gotten me anywhere..I really think this time is it, the final time, the time when I can stand up for myself, stand up to others and say, I’ve followed your advice, tried new things, met people, and this time I just honestly think life is not really for me, the thought of living over the age of say 30 doesn’t really appeal to me, and why shouldn’t I just end it.
I’ve never felt what you just described, but in my own way I totally understand what you mean. I’m sure you know this but life is sooo unpredictable. So, please don’t end it .. Think about it this way: when you were in, let’s say, 9th grade, you probably had this idea about how you would want your life to be, your personality was probably like this instead of that, you probably had interests in these things and a set of goals you wanted to accomplish. Then fast forward to your graduation day, or four years later, those things probably changed. So what I’m trying to say is, today you may feel like nothing is really keeping your attention, but maybe in 6 months or a couple of years something will come into your life that will change how you’re feeling now. You might end up finding something or someone that will make you want to stay here longer, that will change how you view things now. I know it takes time but sometimes we just have to take that chance and wait a little
I can sympathise with what you are saying, as life seems boring to me. Without goals or desires, life is pointless.
same to me. The fact of being fine it’s the poignant thing to me, because having a normal life without any particular missing things and still feeling the void, it’s exhausting. It’s like constantly running after a thing you’re always about to catch, and never do, like in an addiction. But i strongly think that as life, death is absurd, too. It has no meaning suicide for people who don’t have a precise pain to avoid. I strongly prefer the idea of getting old in this limbo, to 70, 80 years old, than disappearing completely (of course anyone has its own view on that). I think i’ll never commit suicide, even though i contemplated it several times.
I’ve stopped looking for things, expierience stuff, when i was so much more curious and excited in my teens, and i guess that’s a mistake. I don’t know. I understand you. Yet, it’s hard, like either if you go to university or work, to bear on, doing things in which you don’t feel anymore any interest in – i don’t, and it’s so pointless,so tedious, having to study all that shit, i should be studying anatomy right now, and you’re seeing how much i’m doing of that. Anyway.
I’ve been feeling the same for a long time. I’m 32. I’ve never met anybody who felt the same (or at least I didn’t know about it).
Life is pointless, death is pointless. Whatever I do, I find it absolutely purposeless. Even if I’m succeed in something, it just bores me to death. Sometimes the feeling is stronger, sometimes it seems to disappear, but it always comes back to me.
I don’t know if I would be able to go through killing myself. Recently I began to feel sorry for the person who would find me. I don’t want to traumatize anybody.
But this pointlessness and indifference is like I would be already dead.
Pointless seems accurate..
I am 23 and have achieved lot of things in my life.. Many things that would make my peers jealous.. But recently, I went through a series of personal events that haunt me from time to time.. I have mustered up the courage to live a little longer.. but every day seems pointless.. Life doesn’t seem worth living.. its just as if I am prolonging the inevitable with out any apparent reason… I went out shopping today but returned without any purchases as they would all just go waste if i decide to do it tonight..
– you can read my story here : http://suicideproject.org/author/soonerthebetter/
PS: i don’t mean to be rude but may be you can take on a project to feel a little better? I take on projects… small ones to get a sensation of accomplishment… i recently finished folding 1000 paper cranes, I did a few paintings but the feel is short lived and i end up empty again.. I wish you all the very best in what ever you decide..
regards, CH
well i agree i am 32 and intelligent and accomplished allot ,i am very happy i exercise regularly and take natural vitamins and minerals and iodine, i fix and install ac/furnaces and make pretty good money, i got a great family which i love, im decent looking and got a descent size wang , i haven’t felt better in my whole life. i am mentally physically emotionally and spiritually improving always and right now i am at my A game, i should want to live right?
i think if you want to die because sadness or personal events or something petty ,i think that’s crap, time mostly heals all wounds or maybe scabs it up enough to go through with life , i have been through some shit, horribly abused kid and homeless and addicted to drugs as a teen , and then took some meds for my prostate in late 20s which messed me up worse than all the drugs i have done times 1000, and i naturally healed my self and now i feel great, but i still feel like i was never meant to be alive.
i am bored with life, women, entertainment ,people, in this age of money in politics and corruption because of it all the way up to the federal reserve privately owned by international bankers( he who owns the money controls the power ) ,and our civil liberties and constitutional rights being taken away slowly ,patriot act , freedom of information act and ,ndaa, . and our drones over seas killing innocent women and children, whatever happened to a fair trial, and all atrocities across the globe make me sick, but don’t affect my overall mental state , i still feel great as a whole person constantly trying to better myself in all ways, but i just feel like life is to repetitive and to much work , getting up every day having to go to work , get home watch something funny ,laugh , go exercise, go buy food and necessities ,now im poor go back to work again , maybe get laid , get bored with woman or sick of her , go look for different woman ,smoke a joint every now and then, get tired of getting high take a 5 month break from smoking ,go smoke again, play video game get bored buy another have fun ,get bored , now im learning to play guitar , get good , get bored, find new hobby , go back to work again blah blah blah rinse and repeat ,
i also know how im gonna kill my self too, i don’t want to give idea to anyone else who might kill themselves for petty reasons don’t want that karma on my soul, but its painless quick and you just fall asleep , i fear my family wont understand but i will leave a big ole goodbye letter explaining the best i can, i think its selfish of them wanting to keep someone around that thinks life is torture ,that’s just rude!!!
I know this is a really old post, but I’d like to give an honest opinion here. All of these comments are very self centered. I don’t mean that in mean way, please understand that, but if you don’t want your life anymore, then by all means, give it away to others who need it. Give it away through acts of service and charity to those who need and are trying to improve their situation, give your life to those who can’t help themselves and visit a hospice or an assisted living facility. Volunteer your time to giving comfort to others and you may find a greater purpose than if you just continued living for yourself. Die to yourself, and live for others.
Good luck, all of you.