A few weeks ago I posted about my new gf and me being afraid about relasping….Well I was right. I am now single and I just started to relapse. I am back in the dark hole of depression and it seems so much colder now that I have seen the sun. I just do not know what to do anymore…I have tried so hard to get out and be happy…and it all came crashing down again. I do not know how to pick up the pieces again. What is so good about about it anyway.
The suicidal thoughts are back and stronger now. I might actually go through with it….