I’ve never been in love before, so I fantasise often. I think about what could have been, or what I want to be true. Still, I know what it is like to have friends and have all of them move away, and it’s not very fun.
I don’t think that it is possible to ever be truly loved. My therapist is in love, and all that I can think about is that she’d better enjoy it, for one day her husband will either leave her, die, or perhaps she will die. One person will be suffering greatly because of this, and he or she will likely appeal to some god to help ease the suffering.
I prevent myself from telling someone that I love them. One reason why I do this is because I would make a fool out of myself, but the main reason why is because I want to avoid the hurt that will result in the end. Others brag about how they’ve had sex or lost their virginities, while I just sit down and watch them talk about each other like they are tools meant to be used. Love seems to develop later in life, and even then, love is sexual in nature, for without sex, most couples would break up very quickly.
Love is not unconditional, as many people on this website would know. As mentioned before, without sex, many people would break up. Love is both emotional and physical. However, both emotions and physical appearance are subject to change. If one is moody or ugly in the other person’s eyes, then that person can say goodbye to falling in love. It’s unfortunate, but true. I can’t alter nature, as much as I wish that I could.
Honestly, I believe that most humans have this desire to be controlled, particularly females, whereas most men seem to want power. I read an article about this the other day, and it mentioned how men are basically miserable without the feeling that they are a leader. People are just like apes, wanting to be the alpha male, or the alpha female. Everyone wants to be the best of the best, and settling for less is never enough. I’m not saying that everyone wants to be a president or dictator of something, but everyone wants to succeed.
People have ulterior motives like this desire for power. It’s how nature is run. Being honest can get one into serious trouble. Might makes right, just ask those who believe in a god. Saying that one does not believe in a god or that one thinks that a particular god is an asshole could bring one in to some serious trouble. Beliefs show power, for one always wants to believe what is true, and being proven false can agitate someone. Being wrong shows weakness, and nobody wants to be weak in the world. Weak people are losers within the eyes of society.