In dire need of true inspiration
To breed on some form of stimulation
I’m not yet my best just a representation
Cause I’m utterly crawling in desperation
In need of direction not just a destination
Craving so deep all I seek inside
Not fully ready to take this stride
Yet no longer do I wish to hide
Losing more hope each time that I’ve tried
As the days go on it’s as if I’ve died
Negative thoughts growing so vile
As I take in pain with a laugh or a smile
It’s been so long, yeah it’s been awhile
Since I’ve had any strength to take on this mile
Just please don’t judge me cause I’m not on trial
Save thee, help me
Need to break free
I dont want to believe this life is crappy
I’m sorry if I seem a bit too sappy
All I truly ever wanted was to just be happy
Yet the words express, what my mouth won’t say
As I seem to float further on each day
I miss the good ol days where we went out out to play
Every day was so bright where they now seem so gray
Can you sincerely give me, any reason to stay?
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I often ask myself these same questions everyday. It seems like all the people I thought “cared” about me are gone and now I’m left with almost no one. The only reason I can give you to stay is that you need to look out for yourself. I know the reason I keep living is because of my mother, who is the only one who give a sh#t about me. there got to be something that keeps you going. Hang on to it, no matter how insignificant it might be.
I agree with Jeff. Sometimes we find our purpose for living deep down inside us… or, for that matter, outside of use (such as family). Whatever your reason is, hold it closely… and follow it. I’ve been in some dark situations… to the point where I was confident my final moment wasn’t too far away. Yet there was something I was able to hold onto. Over time, things got a little better. My life isn’t a bed of roses… not by any means… but I’ve seen some brightness after the darkness.
Dear VickyVale78,
I can not give you the reason to stay,
but i know you hold the answer in you, today.
your representation
shows determination
losing hope because you tried
is like missing the ride
there is no need to hide
just seek those that love, and confide
if we judge
we would be nothing more than sludge
we want you to be happy
because anything else would be crappy
Jeff,
I agree I have my mom, sister, brother… the worst is my niece, nephew because I couldn’t imagine doing that to them. They’re still young and wouldn’t understand. Thank you and I know we must look out for ourselves but it does get hard to do that when you stop caring to the point you hardly care about yourself anymore… Thank you. <3
OnlyLOVEisReal
Thank you… I love it!!! =.)
distant.road
Thank you and I do understand. It’s strange how some days I’m a horrible mess then others I’m like just OK. Like I have no control how I’m going to feel each day, it all depends on my mood when I first wake up. I’m trying. <3
VickyVale78, my pleasure. There are many here that will listen if you ever need