If only they knew…
If only you knew…
If only they didn’t judge…
If only you didn’t break…
If only they understood…
If only you were here…
If only…
February 2014
That’s pretty much the story of my  life.
i always wonder, why am i so sad?… everything is (or at least seems) fine.
my body works how it’s supposed to, i’ve got a decent house, a family who i think loves me, things have been going rather okay lately, and i have never been through really painful situations….
but no matter what i feel like like there’s something missing…like i’m the odd one everywhere i go.
i hate myself. i hate the way i look, the way i speak, think, live, act….
the truth is i don’t want to die…. but i don’t wanna live either – i just want […]
I fell in love with this guy I met online. This all started in the summer of 2013. We would talk for days on end, and he made me feel so happy. We are 1,200 miles apart but that never stopped me. Well, in September I get my phone taken away and I don’t get to talk to him. In January  I get my phone back and I try to talk to him, but he ignores me. So I gave up. Its been hurting so bad. On top of that my parents, ooh don’t even start. Last week I attempted with 15 prescribed pills (idk […]
Hello…First and foremost, I sincerely apologise for having another post already. It is probably quite rude to post again so soon, but so far this isn’t a great night and I just need to talk to someone. Again, I apologise and realise that it is rather rude to post twice within one night.
So I got finished talking with Her, and she says that I should date my close friend mentioned in my other post from tonight. She says that my friend could give me the affection and attention I want, and she says she can’t provide either of those, even if she wanted to. I […]
can someone please help me before i do something stupid and hurt the ones that love me i dont know who to turn to. im just reaching out for help.
If you are very submissive, you have a hard time saying no, and/or your indecisive may I suggest getting a Master. A nice master helps. Being completely owned by someone helps,… in fact in my case it fixed my suicidal  thoughts completely.
Get a Master
It really helps if you need control in your life….well it did for me……….idk
How much clonazepam and temazepam woul someone have to take in order to kill themselves?
She won’t talk to me at school anymore. She won’t even look at me. When we managed to arrange a meetup on omegle, she disconnected for no apparent reason. When my closest friend, the only other person besides her who knows about my depression & suicide attempts, confronted her about it, she says she just doesn’t know what to do anymore. She has replacements for me, i’m not actually special. She supposedly cares, but then why won’t she talk? It hurts. I’m cutting more and more often now…on my hips, where nobody can see it, even at swim practice.
Good evening,
It’s fair to say I am struggling. I’m 35, been suffering with anxiety and depression for 3 years. I also have severe IBS, or in other words I get really ill a lot and the doctors don’t know why. My anxiety has lot of unwanted symptons, the worse one is feeling really cold and tight across the right side of my body. Weird huh? I can seemingly handle one or even 2 at a time, but all 3 and it’s too much.
Of course I’ve tried everything, and I mean everything. I’ll have periods when I think I’m getting to grips with it all and […]
I suffer from dysthymia, or persistent depressive disorder as it’s called now. I’ve been like this since I was 13, so for 20 years I’ve been in this continuous depressed state, with the occasional bouts of major depression. I’ve been on meds for 10 years.
Sometimes I think maybe my natural state of being is depressed and the meds are just some sort of weight suppressing my true state. When I think this way I accept my depression. I accept I will never be happy. I accept I will never be loved. I have no hopes, wants or dreams. This is what I am. What I […]
I’m looking for people to talk to. Every-time I post someone new usually messages me, and as I enjoy talking to others i’m going to keep re-posting >_>
I’m twenty-one year old guy from the UK. I have anxiety, I get depressed, and I have suicidal thoughts. I use to self-harm but haven’t for ages. I also think I might have a personality and body dysmorphic disorder. I’ll be seeing a psychologist this Thursday…. at last.
I don’t usually talk depressingly with others, but I am more than willing to lend an ear if you wish to chat about things that are bothering you. It would be […]
Exit songs, or I suppose they could double as just, depression songs.
Do you have any?
I thought this would be a good chance to gain insight on each other.
Mine would be :
Throw Away- Blue Stahli
Suffocating right- neuroticfish
Count to six and die- Marilyn Manson
Cocoon- Assemblage 23
Sorry if this seems insensitive at all, sometimes it’s just easier for me to communicate through music.
Im trying to get more info regarding setting up the helium myself, but it seems like all the info on here has been deleted/filtered by the mod
When you want nothing more than to be dead, but you can’t bring yourself to commit suicide, and have to live day after day of misery, I believe that this is torture. Trivial compared to “real” torture, but still torture nonetheless.
Torture is defined for many magnitudes, but only the sufferers of the absolute worst kinds of torture receive any sympathy in this world. As another example, one-time victims of rape are often stigmatized, and the pain they suffer is dismissed as marginal. But if the victim was kidnapped and raped over a long period of time, she gains near-universal sympathy.
I just found it today. I don’t know you have read it or not yet… hope you enjoy it
Here is the full article:Â http://shakeoffthegrind.com/emotional-health/free-yourself-by-letting-go-of-what-you-cant-control
have a nice day!
I’ve been acting for my entire life, and I’m getting tired of it. However, every time I try to stop, people immediately begin criticising me and start comparing me to other, better people. I’m not useless. I’m a bad example. I used to be the person that everyone wanted me to be, but now I don’t know. I don’t know whether or not I should live. I don’t know whether or not anything is worth living for. I don’t know whether or not this is a bad dream and I’ll wake up soon. But mainly, I don’t know if I’m strong enough to face this. […]
I tried killing myself on valentines day I took Zoloft (antidepressants) but I only felt like I was going to pass out and my dad found out a few days later when he saw there were no more pills left.He was mad at me and said that what I did was stupid and was kinda yelling at me and said if I went back to the (Lakeside) mental facility that he would just let me stay there.Yesterday I went to the store and got some sleeping pills.Everyone is acting like everything is all my fault like my dad is mad at me for wanting to […]
I’ve been through so much only to reach this point again.
Got through my mother hating me my whole life, I get she has problems but not letting your 11 year old participate in family anythings, I mean what the hell. And then I was still expected to function like a normal child while my savior, my dad was sneaking me food. I’m past that now, she did horrid things to me but I’ve forgiven her.
Wow, forgot to mention the fact that my parents were (father occasionally) raging alcoholics put on earth by satan himself, thanks man.
Got through my dad beating me later […]
I have cheated on my ex drunk four times.
Yet, I feel I love him i feel like he’s the only one who cares.. but I was bad and I don’t know how to fix what I’ve done. I feel like he could save me from myself but, I’m too proud to ever tell him I’m going to kill myself.
he broke up with me a few weeks ago, I got a new boyfriend 5 days later, to make him jealous, for obvious reasons it looked like I was just a psycho. And that I really didn’t care. If  I really loved him I prolly wouldn’t have […]
I have so many regrets in my life after I graduated college. I have many friends but I feel depressed at times. I am the youngest in the family and my parents are so over protective to me. I should be home before 8PM. Rules are rules. No boyfriend after college. No drinking of alcohol. No smoking. They are over manipulating me. I am not a robot. Especially my sisters, they always control my life. I hate living anymore. I had a boyfriend. I met him at my work, he’s my co-employee. We’ve been together 7 months from now. He’ s my first boyfriend, First […]