February 13th, 2014by HateLife69
I’ve made too many stupid mistakes in my 26 years on this earth. There is no way for me to have a normal life any more. I got fired from my job of 8 years and now I cant get hired by any one. My wife works 10 hours a day and I am only working at a shitty temp job 20 hours a week. I feel like im not a man anymore. I just fucked up too many times and theres no way back. There are no second chances. Nothing will ever be the same. I dont feel suicidal yet but in the future i am sure that my life quality will digress to a point where i dont care any more. I am sick of worrying about money. I am sick of worrying about my wife leaving me. I am sick of being human. I stopped talking to my former friends and I don’t want any new friends. I dont talk to anyone anymore. I feel like i am socially broken; I am missing part of my sanity. Sometimes I think about how magical and open the world felt when i was a child and i wish i could get that back, but i am too far gone. theres no way back for me.