“What’s on your mind” what a way to greet someone a suicide blog haha.. I don’t really know what to write in this as I’m new so.. I guess I’ll start out by saying hi. my name is Kay (well that’s my nickname I want to stay anonymous just in case haha) Jesus I sound really happy or something when I’m writing this but I’m the complete opposite to happy which is what has led to me to this website. I’m an ordinary 17 year old from Ireland but I just have a lot on my mind. Right now I’m not in a good place. I’m tired, I’m sick and I just want to give up on everything. It’s like I’ve no motivation or energy left in my body for me to carry on. I feel like I, fading away bit by bit over time and it just doesn’t seem to go way. It’s a horrible feeling and I’ve already went through a self harming stage due to bullying and exam stress etc… I’ve been to councelling it’s done nothing? I just have no other options at the moment. I feel like my whole family just hates me but they don’t want to say it to me. I cause an argument in my house every single day and that is no exaggeration. I feel they would be so much happier without me. I blame myself. My friends are the only ones who I can talk to and even some of them I wouldn’t be comfortable to talk about this with as they would think I’m attention seeking. This isn’t me attention seeking or looking for people to feel sorry for me this is me giving my feelings and this is my way of asking for help, I don’t know what to do because at this current stage I would do anything to not wake up in the morning, I just want my old life back.
Kay
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Top o’ the mornin’ to ya, lov’.
Thanks for sharing a bit of information about yourself, we all have our own stories but the experiences tend be somewhat similar all around. Mm…you’re 17 yet seek your “old life” back and what exactly was your old life composed of? Or is it merely the fact that things were much simpler when we were children? In any event, I s’pose we should be thankful for the good times in our life and acknowledge that dark times are what make or break us and even determine whether or not we may ever be comfortable with our personal circumstances again.
I’m sure your friends and family have all the love in the world for you, whether we feel deserving of it or not, and even with the absence of this perceived ‘love’; it is still there within our own heart’s. We need to reflect everything we so desire in life upon ourselves in order for it to show up around us in the full spectrum of life. I appreciate that it’s a hard thing to ask/do, with a little hope (and some faith for good measure), I am confident you yourself can achieve this. Perhaps counselling didn’t help, but I’m thinking that posting on here will be another avenue for you to walk down if you ever need to offload the daily stresses of life and get some advice.
I can’t be 100% certain whether you’ll get your old life back or not, but why not build upon a future which emulates all that you were…all that you are…and all that you want to be? Surely that could develop a new life you’d be more than happy to live. Again, thanks for sharing and I sincerely hope you enjoy your day 🙂