If you’ve ever tried to commit suicide and failed, the doctors tell you to spend as much time as possible with friends and people you care about. At the same time, we are told from every possible place – books, magazine articles, tv *doctors*, to cut out the people in your life who are bringing you down. There is no place to turn. This speaks volumes about this culture and society; it speaks to me. It tells me that if I’m a downer, people will cut me out of their life. That leaves suffering in silence. A 45 minute session with my shrink once a month is a joke. The only reason I keep going to him is for my prescriptions. this is the only place I can say what I truly feel.
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I know how you feel!!! We need others and they end up turning away because we are “too depressing” and “no one likes that.” But it is something I also struggle with. I mean, we are told to talk things out with an adult we trust or a friend, clergy, etc. But where do you draw the line? You say too much they leave you as well. I don’t have any answers my friend. I wish I could help. All I can say though is I know how you feel and understand where you are coming from. In my attempts to get help I have had many leave me. And actually in 10 years, only one lady who has stayed by my side. Without her, I do know I wouldn’t be here writing this to you today. As for the Mental Health Professionals, I believe a lot of them are sincere as they can be but fall into the
“trap” a lot of stereotyping. I don’t wish to speak negatively about it. I know I would likely do the same if I had person after person come in with the same disorders day after day after day. But to those on the outside, we know how individual the cases can be. And 45 minutes to an hour a month really is a joke when you consider how serious this is and how desperately some of us need that open communication with another person. I also get an hour a month with my therapist as everyone in this area moved to the main branch that is quite a bit farther away for me. I used to attend weekly. Even daily in something there. Be it Support group, indidivdual therapy, med reviews, or DBT. But it also helps to have people on here who will talk. True, it isn’t the same as one on one but it does satisfy the need to some degree. I hope you will stay and talk to us!! We will listen to you!!