hi

hi i guess , im new here , i guess im will tell you my story , sorry if this gets boring. im here because i needed something to let out everything thats bottled up in side of me . i dont have a sad story and people may think that why do i do this because i havent gone through enough , i havent been bullied or abused or any strong like that. ive been self harming for about 1 and a half years , the reason is because im in love , i cant have him , he is my best friend , he knows everything about me , he is like a brother , he saved me from my own distruction , i love him with all my heart , but he has a gf , everyone keeps saying to me that there going to brake up but i never believe it, i guess love is the stupid reason that you will probably here about a lot more in future posts. when i said he saved me i truly ment it , i was crying one night i was deeply upset that night , no one was home , i had a real negitive thaught day if you know what i mean , i have always thaught about suicide in the last year its a common subject latley , it was about midnight , i was messaging him on facebook , he knew something was up , he skyped called me that night , he knew what i had done to myself again ===, he stayed me and we just chatted for ages he was there for me that whole time , and i love him for that he is my hero i just wished he knew it.