Anyone out there knows if theres a place where you could talk a little more freely about suicide than on SP? I want to be able to talk with serious people on a serious forum about suicide. I’ve been thinking about killing myself for eight years now. I tried once and failed. I dont want to make the same mistake again. If i try it again i dont want to die alone. I had depresion/anxiety/panic attacks frequently for most part of my life. I dont think its gonna get any better. I am alone. I dont have any friends. Why keep trying you know?
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i hear you. have u at least made peace with God before you decide to go?
Why keep trying?
i have been asking myself that a lot, and took me a long time to find an answer
for me i decided that i was not going to die, when i felt like i had not been given a chance to live, when i did not know what it felt like to be alive
now im closing in on 25 years and i might have a chance at living, it may fail as i often have, but trust me, this felling i worth fighting for
as for the don’t want to die alone part… why would you take someone whit you?
how about finding someone to live whit?
how about using this forum to find someone that suffers and make them feel like they are not alone?
you have the chance to live, i may take you several years, but trust me, it is worth the fight
Its its like a vicious cycle, feel like you wanna die, get better, start hoping for a better life, get disapointed and so it goes on. If life cant be enjoyed why be here? I dont wanna live for twenty more years and regret it. But i keep on fighting. Maybe i fail. Or maybe things really do get better. Either way, i dont wanna do it all alone.
I know,
trust me i know
If you want to talk more about it, im here 🙂
and if you post your story here im sure you will find more people that is willing to support you,
one thing that i found in my life that i was doing wrong was that i was always trying to life the life others wants me to live
i think it was Jim Carry that said “you can fail at what you don’t want, so why not take a chance at what you want”
don’t know if that helps, but if there is something that i can do let me know 🙂
you don’t have to be alone
a “vicious cycle” is actually something that feeds into itself, increasing and exacerbating exponentially, until an intervention stops the cycle by removing what fuels it, by stopping the cycle, by removing what fuels it, by stopping the cycle… etc.
Thats why it fits in so perfectly. The only two ways of stopping the cycle would be a good possitive change that would bring you into another less “vicious” cycle, or dying, as when you die you break the circle and stop fuelling the circle.
My life story is not necessary nor does it really matter. I have numerous reasons for wanting to end my life and I feel that I am getting closer. I have researched on and of about suicide and I have been wanting to attempt on and off. I have reached my peak and because of my fear of failure and other things I want a serious suicide partner. Distance is not an issue, last moments will be via Skype chat. Serious people email me at Valariecandy@yahoo.com with your favorite suicide attempt and I will reply.
I am 18, african american and a stoner!