A Bitter End

For those like me there truly is no rest for the weary.But at the same time if your like me you simply cannot just end your life.not that I dont want to.its that I cant.being alone for all this time has shaped me.in my eyes I must be independant and not rely on anyone else.I must do things the right way the first time or not at all.discipline comes into action if I show weakness.I become so angry with myself for making even small mistakes it intoxicating.I have too much pride you could say.like this for example…I would rather die than be caught off guard.I cant commit suicide because that would be taking the easy way out and that is cowardly.suicide is different in everybodies eyes this is what it is to me.For those of you like me….you must change.because people like us are destined for a bitter end….