Living with a secret? Tell someone -Heres why…

I recently had someone reach out to me and tho they didn’t have to, they did. I have made a huge mess out of my life, allowed myself to be abused and taken advantage of and am too ashamed to tell anyone.

Now your problem or “secret” could be anything. Maybe you harm yourself, maybe you’re being abused, or maybe like me you’ve somehow gotten yourself into some huge mess. What I realized today is how much it helps to have someone else’s opinion on your situation. They see things that you won’t see. Steps that you can take that you may not think of. Personally, I am overwhelmed with my problems and the only influence I had on my thoughts was the person causing me the problems (although that would technically be me since I’m allowing it to happen) but the person who’s taking advantage of me has the biggest control over me right now, so having somone give me their advice helped me so much.

I was thinking about how many people out there come here to vent or express their feelings or intentions regarding suicide, but maybe never actually speak to people about the things that are going on in their life. We tend to put on a good front in real life and hide everything negative, but talking to this person today really helped me. Yes, I still want to die and my life is still destroyed beyond repair, but he gave me a ray of hope and also told me about something that I need to try to do which I hadn’t thought of.

So if you’re struggling in silence with your problems, I encourage you to somehow try to talk to someone. In my case, I was very lucky because I didn’t want to share those things with people that I know in person because I’m too ashamed and instead he came along like an angel, from the internet lol. This site is an awesome place to vent share your feelings anonymously, but I see the benefits of talking to someone who you click with now too. For the record, I have talked to a couple of people from sp over the last year and had great conversations, but I guess this was different because I shared details about things happening now whereas the other talks were about depression in general which were also very helpful. Depressed people understand each other and are sensitive and caring people, so we should definitely support each other!