For years now I’ve lived life miserably. I have children that I love very much but I feel no good to them. Life is a chore not an enjoyment. The only time I’m “happy” is when I’m with a certain man that I can’t even have. That’s all I look forward to and now that’s being taken away. I’ve gotten help. I’ve been on meds and I’m currently on them. today I found myself looking up painless ways to commit suicide. I don’t want to take my own life for the simple fact that my kids won’t get my death benefits. However I can’t wait to be taken out of this God forsaken world that seems to be a never ending nightmare. Does anyone else go thru life like this on a daily basis?
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How old are your children?
9, 12, 19
I do and I’m only 19. I feel as if life is a huge chore, just the idea of having to function and pretend that I actually want to live makes me sick. Honestly, I hate having to wake up in the morning. I wish I didn’t exist or that I was never created, I’m just tired of life.
People always say think of your kids…do they really think that helps? I’m 36 and I absolutely hate life. I see no reason behind it. Why can’t god give me some disease to take me out and leave someone that wants to live here. I would gladly give my life for someone else.