I am heartbroken by how many lives suffer daily. Abused, tortured, bullied… I often just want to leave the earth and take man kind along with me, but I can’t.
I am making this post to say to all people, non matter where you are, if you have mixed feelings if you should kill yourself. Then speak to me.
I used to be suicidal myself. My life was luckily good. I had education, middle class, but my head. My head killed me constantly. Causing me to injure myself to get it to stop. I am better. Kinda, and I decided that I want to spend my time helping people just like me. Different then others.
I will listen to your stories of grief and pain and why you want to go. It’s never your fault. Suicide never is the persons fault. But if you are unsure of killing yourself. Please let me try to make you feel better. I can never stop your from committing suicide. But if you want to hold on I can help you.
I hope you will give this a chance. I want to spend my life saving others. Weather a human, dog, or any other animal. I will hold on. I will remain strong. And I want other too. We will all do this together.
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Wow, something Maggie Gallagher said actually made sense. It’s probably taken out of the context of some right wing rant about why terminally ill people in tremendous pain shouldn’t be allowed to die with dignity.
I appreciate your sentiment, anyhow. I can relate, having previously been an emotional train-wreck who attempted suicide twice morphing into the emotionally castrated human I am now.
Having no emotions will always be better than having depression.
I feel glad knowing people have had such experiences I can never say “I once felt suicidal!!!” Out loud. So I am never sure how many people can relate. Sometimes shutting everyone out is better then letting them crowd in.
You seem well-meaning and you can’t make me feel better. Changing my life has to come from within me. I have been through so many treatments (ECT, PHP, meds, IP, DBT). The one thing I learned through every treatment is that people can help me but only I can change me. Thanks for your offer, though
I am glad you feel better. I never told anyone, I used to hurt myself in private. I never got meds or help from people. Somehow I got out of the pit hole, I am glad when others stand up too and get back on their feet. I do hope someday suicide would leave completely. But with bullies and mental differences I fear I will never see that day.
My choice lies outside Maggie’s. Thanks for the thought, anyway. It was a momentary distraction.
I know you most likely meant to help; I am sorry you may well find such a mission impossible within the confines of this web site.
There will always be suicides, no matter what. It is part of the human condition.
OP: This is a very sweet post. Really.
I have THE most supportive person EVER fighting daily to save my life. If He can’t, if I can’t, you won’t be able to either.
There are things in this life over which you can exercise no control, no matter how sweet your wish to try.
well I applaud your decision to help others thats a good thing to do and I bet you will be good at it. You got to leave a way for people to contact you one on one though. some people dont want to discuss the details of their issues on a public thread.