I’v been suicidal for 5 years. I started to self harm in 7th grade. I was bullied a lot and figued no one cared. My friend saw my arm… she didnt lecture me or tell me to stop or ask why. She simply walked away and we never spoke again. Iv had no one to talk to for 5 years. My mom hates me. She knows nothing about me. Her main goal in life is to get high with her boyfriend, but anyways im in my junior year of high school. Everyone look at me funny, i mean it was fine until it got worse. I get pushed into lockers and yelled at kicked hit and i cant take anymore iv been spit at iv had people throw books at me. I never understood what i did wrong to anyone! I just want someone to talk to. I cut myself 72 times including my arms side legs and chest. Im a 17 year old girl. When a guy wants to be with you they dont wanna see scars or mean things you carve into yourself. Iv been told im a attention seeker, at 1st i tried to hide it but eventually i stopped caring if people saw what i did. I sit on my roof at night and think about jumping off. I dont know what to do.
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That’s quite the resume f.o.n. I personally can’t give you any advice, as I was never bullied in school, but I can talk with you, if you’re willing.
You don’t have to do anything wrong for people to treat you like shit..thats just unfortunately part of the world we live in.
Youre nearly 18…will you be able to move out when you turn? That could help with possible mom problems. Youre nearing the end of HS…theres no guarentees but odds are things will improve once your away from those people..if you can hold out til then..
You might not have anyone in real life…but talking on here seems to help some people….so if you ever feel the need….you can talk to us.
Hey there, I know it’s so tough right now. People can be so cruel once they find someone they can take advantage of. Once they identify someone as an easy target, it’s hard to escape being the victim. I feel for you so much. You would be surprised by other’s reactions to self-harm, those who don’t care, don’t matter. I hope you can find people outside of your school that are like minded and compassionate. There is nothing wrong with you, some people just don’t understand the battles that some of us face everyday. Please don’t jump off the roof, even four floors up isn’t enough to do anything put cause lasting physical pain down the road. Again, I listened to Taylor Swift’s Mean all through high school to get me through it. And you know those shallow girls who picked on you and those jocks that teased you? They got no where in life. They are still as dumb and unambitious as before. The girls got super fat, the guys got fat, they weren’t prettier or smarter, just insecure and mean. Believe it or not, but you are better than those fools.
& why the hell are you listening to these fuckn nasty people round you. its your life & if someone doesnt like this show him your midfinger.
If you want to talk just email me & i’ll reply gladly. 🙂