Hi everyone, lately I’ve been thinking more and more about suicide. Over a year ago I met this guy who I feel in love with and after about 8 months I was told he had a girlfriend. Imagine the hurt and betrayal I felt by this. Sadly I wasn’t strong enough to walk away from him, it’s like he had some kind of control over me. I finally got to a place where I walked away from him for good about 5 months ago. I’ve been trying to better myself and move on with my life, I’m only 22. I’ve been trying to get back in school but it seems every time I try this a huge road block pops up (financially speaking). But recently we got back in contact with each other and he ask me would I try again (here’s where the mind games began). I didn’t really give him an answer I just said I loved him very much and maybe in the future. Then he said to me “I would try again”. Then days later I finally tell him I’d try again and he never responds to me, it’s like he doesn’t want to be with me but he enjoys having me want him and be needy for him. He’s been dealing with another girl on top of all that and that really hurt me all over again, he drives her car and everything. I don’t understand why this hurts me so bad. I try praying but I’m so lonely and so depressed every second of every day literally, I really don’t know what to do at this point in my life.
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Sweetie it souds like at some point he deided he was Done with you and found himself another girl. Now he just seems to be playing with you >Why? < becuase some guys are assholes and like to play around with a womans emotions and play psychologicla games just because he might find it amusing. Do yourself a favor and keep the guy out of your life. Dont contact him or talk to him
you will find another man who respects you someday.
Great advice, Uptown.
HopefulforMe, I’m in sort of a similar situation. Once we accept that there’s no real hope of having an authentic relationship, breaking off contact and moving forward is all we can do. I know how much it hurts 🙁
Maybe posting here will help you through the worst of it.
Is his name Dustin? I so feel your frustration. If his name isn’t Dustin then you just described the guy I’ve had relations with for the last couple years. It’s the same shit every time. If you’re strong enough to stay away from him than for your heart’s sake, do that. He will only hurt you. I’m not strong enough towalk away. I only wish I could.