I didn’t knew my grandpa much. He died when I was 10 in his sleep. He was also depressed. Sometimes I blame him for my sufferings. It could be genetic. Then, he didn’t choose to fall into this pit, so I can’t be mad at him. I think he was a good person. My mother say so.
I’ve been told he was the manager of a sock factory. I’ve been told he survived the holocaust. I’ve been told he has been through a lot. It must have been nice when death greet him that night. Like a big relief. I wonder how’s that. Salvation. I wish I knew him better. I wish I could tell him “Look what you’ve made me! A monster!”, then followed by “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to-“, then he’d cut me off and start telling a joke. I’ve been told he had a healthy sense of humor.
I just hope I’ll meet him up there when it’s time. He sounds like a cool guy.
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If I can interject something… if your grandpa saw all those things it could make him depressed, even whole life. There are the pictures you can’t just simply erase from the memory. And they come with the dreams, over and over. Believe me. I’m living in the land where the innocent people were slayed just like the pigs under a butcher’s knife. The land where ill mind of one man killed in the fires of Auschwitz’s rooms millions… The after-death-camp syndrome was very popular here among the survivors. Though I didn’t know your grandpa, so I can’t tell… but it wouldn’t be unusual if he just had post-camp syndrome.
You know, after Auschwitz’s prisoners were freed, many of them committed suicide… I can go further into the story, if it’s your wish.
yeah, you’re right. i didn’t take that into account.
I bet that not only you may have forgotten. If you don’t live in the place where the memorial of the past times is still bringing to live, you’ll forget.
Still, your grandpa was surely good man. Mine, grand grandpa, survived two wars, Spanish flu epidemic, the death of his youngest son, the deaths of all his friends thanks to Nazi and to the end of his life he had anger attacks when he heard German language. Sad.