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Hello all! Long overdue intro..

by The Mad Hatter

Just thought I’d introduce myself as I’ve been lurking and commenting for a while..

But yeah, Mad Hatter here, its been a pleasure hanging around chatting to the people here, I came here recently during a depressive episode looking for an easy way to kill myself – and I found the experience cathartic and decided to stay.

I’m 26 years old, bipolar & DDNOS and am openly gay. I’m a recovering drug addict, I took a vast array of illegal drugs every day for a decade before getting clean earlier this year after a major breakdown where I gave up my job and made a serious suicide attempt, gave up everything even smoking. Life is more boring but more stable now, still have manic and depressed episodes but mostly less severe than I used to, and psychotherapy helps but my therapist is being cautious dealing with meΒ at the moment due to a recent suicide attempt. Wish I had more to say, but there you go, me in a paragraph. I may get around to giving a long and boring life story at some point, but for now this will have to do…



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Galactic Hitchhiker 9/17/2014 - 8:39 pm

You look British. Are you British? That’s cool you’re an INFP. I’ve known lots of INFP’s. Great people. (I’m an INTJ.)

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 8:45 pm

Haha yeah you got it in one! half british half scottish πŸ™‚ And thanks, never known an INTJ, but just looked it up and it seems your type is pretty rare! Thanks for replying, its a pleasure meeting you mate πŸ™‚

Galactic Hitchhiker 9/17/2014 - 8:49 pm

There are a few INTJs on this site, I believe. They’re around, but they do seem to be more rare statistically speaking.

C4 9/17/2014 - 8:57 pm

Hi Mad Hatter!

I’m gay too. I’m a girl with huge titties and I hate being viewed as a sex object. I’m an heir to a multi billion dollar per year Mediterranean empire and I just can’t take the stress anymore. It’s having damaging effects on my skin.

I’ve thought about committing suicide but I haven’t had enough good photos taken of me yet.

Life is so complicated. I think i’ll just have another shot of whiskey and figure out this mystery later.

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 8:59 pm

Top rate trolling as usual mate, wouldnt expect anything less from you lol

C4 9/17/2014 - 9:03 pm

ILY. Don’t tell anyone though, k?
I’ll just tell ’em you’re Queer. πŸ™‚

Galactic Hitchhiker 9/17/2014 - 9:15 pm

Yes, C4 is my lesbian lover. The secret is out. Sorry to disappoint you Mad Hatter, he’s taken.

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 9:20 pm

@C4 aww ILY too lol πŸ˜›

@Galactic hitchhiker aww really? Damn dude you beat me to her! Well I wish you two the best of luck together <3

k4rma 9/17/2014 - 9:04 pm

the damaging effects on my skin part made me spill my drink..

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 9:23 pm

Lol yeah C4 always gets top marks for originality!

theWhispersOfMySins 9/17/2014 - 9:10 pm

Nice to meet you. I think I’ve fallen in love with the bunny in your photo. That’s ok right?

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 9:22 pm

Nice to meet you too πŸ™‚ Thanks for the reply, and haha of course! I love my bunny too he’s so cute <3 always keeps me company when I'm lonely he's a loyal friend

C4 9/17/2014 - 9:31 pm

@The Mad Hatter; You’re awesome but I’m GH’s *****. (property). My testicles are firmly entrenched in her purse.
That’s neither here nor there. It’s Whiskey Wednesday!!!
Ahhhh. Can I buy you a drink? .

k4rma 9/17/2014 - 9:37 pm

Try not to kill yourself and let’s have a hangover thursday today πŸ˜‰

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 9:50 pm

well where I am its Thursday already (2:47am already), so hangover Thursday today it is! πŸ™‚

k4rma 9/17/2014 - 9:39 pm

dunno how to edit.. meant to say tomorrow.. lol

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 9:46 pm

@C4 Thanks for the compliment, you’re awesome too dude πŸ˜‰ dont worry your testicles are safe from me (for now)… A drink sounds good if you’re buying dude!

C4 9/17/2014 - 10:04 pm

You’re obviously a freak ( my favorite kind of people).You’re Scottish? I’d like to golf with the Queen of England. Afterwards, we’d have sex and drink tea.
Isn’t that the most romantic thing you’ve ever hard?
Maybe we could sing karaoke at the local Asian bar. The Queen of England is a HUGE Iron Maiden fan.
How cool is that?
I would go lesbo for the Queen.

Galactic Hitchhiker 9/17/2014 - 10:16 pm

@C4 Are you trying to tell me you want me to ditch you? Jesus.

(Ignore him, he’s drunk.)

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 10:21 pm

They dont get any freakier than me sweetie πŸ˜‰ tea and sex sounds real good but you’d break poor galactic h’s heart, we can’t have that now can we? Your relationship is too meaningful than that surely?
And for the record, there isn’t a person in the UK who wouldn’t go lesbo for the queen if they got a chance lol

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 10:26 pm

BTW C4 where do you come up with all your stuff? You take randomness and process it into an art form dude πŸ˜›

Galactic Hitchhiker 9/17/2014 - 10:31 pm

C4 is being a ***** (purposely). He must be mad at me. πŸ™‚
That’s all I have to say here. Peace.

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 10:35 pm

Haha must be dude. Take care, I’ll see you around πŸ™‚

C4 9/17/2014 - 10:35 pm

I would go down on The Queen for benefit of the empire. Who wouldn’t?
She’s kinda sexy.

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 10:37 pm

I’d go down on the queen if I was a girl, I hear she’s not into guys at the moment… She is damn sexy though I hear she’s a demon in the sack too, real kinky..

k4rma 9/17/2014 - 10:44 pm

the Queen is a reptilian go ahead and ask anunnaki he knows all about it.
So this actually means she can shapeshift into male or female form.. or both… now that’s fucking kinky.

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 10:49 pm

No shit really? Reptillian? Definately need to get anunnaki in on this I wonder where he’s at when we need him? And no way she can be male and female? I could have some fun with him/her if what you say is true, real role reversal style kinkiness!!

C4 9/17/2014 - 10:45 pm

The Queen of England is most certainly one hot piece of ass.
Fuck yeah I’d drill her.
What’s yer fuckken point?

Galactic Hitchhiker 9/17/2014 - 10:48 pm

This is how he tells me he has a problem with me. By talking about being with other women. Very classy.

The Mad Hatter 9/17/2014 - 10:53 pm

Hes none too subtle is he? I think there must be something lacking in your relationship with him GH, he seems sexually frustrated.. maybe you should dress up in a naughty queen outfit in the bedroom so he can get his regipheliac kicks πŸ˜‰

Galactic Hitchhiker 9/17/2014 - 11:00 pm

He lets other people get into his head. They tell him we shouldn’t be together and he believes them. C’est la vie. I don’t fly where I’m not wanted.

C4 9/17/2014 - 11:09 pm

@The Mad Hatter; This is your post.
I’m NOT gonna be an asshole.
Scotland SHOULD break away from the UK.
Yeah, I said it.
Put THAT in your pipe and smoke it, motherfuckr.
Bwaa. G’nite.

The Mad Hatter 9/18/2014 - 3:28 am

Lol I’m fine with that tbh I live in England now dude, Scotland is big and cold and rainy, if they want to be separate that’s their choice..

C4 9/17/2014 - 11:39 pm

I’ve wanted to introduce myself too. But what can I say?
I have a regular sized popsicle? Barbeques are tasty.

The Mad Hatter 9/18/2014 - 3:31 am

Barbeques are tasty I have to give you that πŸ˜› you should introduce yourself too then, show us what you look like, tell us why you’re here..

Hjerteblomst 9/18/2014 - 4:37 am

nice to meet you πŸ™‚ thanks for introducing yourself. cute bunny in the background, you look nice too πŸ™‚

i would comment more, i am just too emotionally drained… and i dont want to write boring or uninteresting comments.

The Mad Hatter 9/18/2014 - 5:11 am

Hey there, pleasure to meet you too! Had to introduce myself eventually, couldn’t be a lurker forever lol πŸ™‚ Aww thanks, my good friend Mr Bunny says hi and he’s sure you look nice too! Sorry to hear you’re feeling so drained, hopefully you’ll feel brighter some day soon.. X

Hjerteblomst 9/18/2014 - 10:08 pm

Thanks and i hope you keep holding on..

C4 9/18/2014 - 12:16 pm

I really need to stay offline after the 5th shot of whiskey or so. I had/have a cold, so I figured I’d drown the sickness with Jamesons’.
I don’t even remember writing most of the above comments last night. Oh well. Whiskey Wednesday.
Sorry for the silly comments. Nice to meet you.

The Mad Hatter 9/18/2014 - 12:50 pm

Lol no worries – you made me laugh πŸ™‚
Nice to meet you too buddy.

C4 9/18/2014 - 1:09 pm

There’s a slight chance that I’m not the most well adjusted person you’ve ever met. That’s hard to believe, I know, considering we’re on a suicide forum and all. It’s not as if you’d expect to meet crazy people here, right? πŸ™‚ (No offense meant towards any lunatics who might be reading this).

The Mad Hatter 9/18/2014 - 1:45 pm

Well, not meaning to come across rude, I wouldn’t have put you as the most “normal” person i’ve ever spoken to, but if “normal” means boring and self-centred then that’s a compliment… And as it goes, you have a great sense of humour, you’ve made me smile and laugh more than anyone else here πŸ™‚ out of interest, do you have any diagnosed condition, and are you even suicidal? you’re of course welcome to not answer and I wont think differently of you either way.

C4 9/18/2014 - 2:22 pm

I don’t visit doctors or shrinks. I don’t know if there’s anything wrong with me. I’m assuming there is though considering I’m on this site.
The suicidal ideation comes and goes. I’ll probably pull the trigger one of these days but there’s stuff I want to do first.

E 9/18/2014 - 6:45 pm

hey man. i hope i can be here for you like you were for me the other day. it’s nice to but a face to the name πŸ™‚

The Mad Hatter 9/18/2014 - 6:49 pm

Hey there E, nice to see you again! Glad I somewhat maybe helped a bit, at least as someone to understand and listen.. and thanks for the kind sentiment, I really appreciate it buddy πŸ™‚

The Mad Hatter 9/18/2014 - 6:51 pm

How are you doing by the way?

E 9/18/2014 - 7:33 pm

dont thank me its a pleasure to help where i can really πŸ™‚

had a bit of a rough day but its to be expected right? anyway how about you man how you doing?

The Mad Hatter 9/18/2014 - 9:06 pm

Aww you’re sweet, really are. Shame about your rough day, I’d give you a hug if I could <3

Yeah not so bad thanks, got a doctors appointment later today so I can get some of my hypochondriac worries off my chest and maybe get a few more blood tests lol. May have to have an endoscope tho having difficulty swallowing its really annoying, on omeprazole but its not really helping.. ah well. Nil despirandum.

E 9/18/2014 - 9:29 pm

you really are too kind πŸ™‚ although you can’t send me a hug the thoughts and relishes of them are just as good πŸ™‚

i feel you when it comes to medical stuff better to get things checked out so good on you im always thinking I’ve got something wrong with me over stupid stuff. but im wary.and yea bloodtests i used to get them every 3 months or so. i hope all goes well for you tomorrow and yes, never despair πŸ™‚

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