Little pill

i don’t know what to do anymore, i really don’t wanna die, but i want the pain to go away. i just don’t know how to do it without commiting suicide. please someone, help me i really need help. but i don’t get any. people around me always just run away from me. i don’t know what i have ever done to them.

i normaly cut everyday but i’m trying to stop, bc i almost died once of it. i didnt meant to do that, but i was so angry at myself that i did it to deep. i really don’t wanna put myself in that place again. so i’m really trying.

my boyfriend really suports me inthis too. and i have some really close friends that helps me so much i really love them so much, and i know i let them down every time i cut. my life is a waste of time. i don’t know why i’m still alive.

last night i just cried, cried and cried in my friends arms. and after he left i just broke down, i cried till i felt asleep. i just keep crying all the time. everyday i cry at least once.  

i don’t know why i keep living.  i really wanna die. it’s my dream. my dream are to die. die and get peace from everything.

i really wanna share my life to everyone. and now im sharing it over here. and thanks for letting me sharing. because it helps to share it, and not just keep it all to myself.  

i’ve set my suicide date. but i don’t think i can do it, because of my boyfriend i love him so much hes the best in the world and i don’t wana hurt him. but yeah i don’t think i can keep on living more long….