The Road Out of a Dark Hole

On the way I hit bumps along with her.
Sometimes it would be nice and smooth,
and there are times where,
Ide hit her bumps and shed hit mine.
Sometimes I would accidentally push her into a bump,
and sometimes she would push me into one.

But we still kept walking.
No, at this point we started jogging

Several times one of us wanted to stop taking the road together because
of all the pushing and falling down.
Sometimes her,
Sometimes me.

But in the end of the day the only thing i could remember well was
the fact that the reason I am walking now and still am walking.
Is because I was with her, and because she gave me hope to do so.
Hope so strong I didn’t need to think a second time about standing.

As i whimper in this depression, with my sand like feet.
I hear myself in the midst of it all saying, “Please don’t go.”
“Please don’t go.”

Fading away into the darkness isn’t an easy thing to comprehend.
Things people do in the darkness, a lot of people find it ridiculous.
But who are they to judge by looking at blackness?
Having to slow down on your journey is a life threating experience.
Suicide, cutting yourself, drugs, alchohol. We’re all exposed to what makes us feel, well, better.

Why these things? It is because that we cannot seem to find help.
Other people do nothing but judge. People who have not been in the darkness, cannot understand what it is like to be in the void. And people who are, tend to stay quiet and suffer alone.

But don’t give up.
I was once one of you.
I have found a helping hand in the brink of the cliff, squat and ready to jump.
And that hand is now the love of my life.
Life is a crazy experience, filled with ups and downs.
A lot of the time it depends on how your attitude towards things are.
You may fuck up, and you may succeed.
But if you’re sure about something, or someone. Don’t give it or him/her up. You will most definitely regret it.

Escaping the dark isn’t an easy process.
It takes unimaginable amounts of effort, luck and time.
But you’ll get out of there.
If I did. Then you can too.

Even though I need to take the bumps and let her take the smooth road as much as possible. I hate seeing her down, for the past year or so, there hasn’t been a single day where I’ve never cared about her. Sometimes shes down because of me, I screw up a lot… And sometimes shed even want to stray from me, but I won’t ever let that happen, because she is who I want in my life. This is my decision. And nothing will ever stop me from reminding her that the road seems to shine brighter whenever we light each others way.

She won’t feel regret leaving me.
And she can throw me away in an instant if she feels like it.
Right now I don’t know if she still wants to be with me..
or in fact if she even loves me at all now..

But i’ll have my hopes up.
she’s the one that gave me light.
and i’ll always see light in her for as long as I live.