I’m not really a touchy feely kind of guy but since she left I feel as I can’t continue. I’ve got 96 pills and two bottles of wine. I feel bad about doing it at my mothers but there’s really no other option. Gave the house to my ex. The last ten months and three weeks have been torture. I’ve only survived that long because of my son but I can’t do it any more. Imagine what it feels like to want to die but having to push on, I can’t go on any longer. I went to the doctors today. They told me to come back in two weeks, oh the irony. People will probably remember me as a fucking wanker for leaving that little boy but there’s nothing but emptyness now, a void. Time doesn’t fix anything. I asked her today if I was to fix everything would she try again slowly such as going on a date. No, no way in hell apparently. Funny, people always reckoned I’d end up in prison before hell. Good bye and best wishes to the only people who’ll ever understand.
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you have hit a low point in your life, I don’t know what to say about how to progress but I’ve always been against overdosing because they seldom work, you can read the various posts here or just trust me on it, the large majority fail. Only barbiturates give a good success record but they are near impossible to get, don’t try aspirin or paracetamol or you’ll just mess yourself up. I hope you change your mind for the sake of your child as it will be so difficult for him if you did succeed, he’ll struggle with it and may blame himself for your death.
Your definitely having a hard time but as Nias said I hope you change your mine for the sake your child. Best wishes. 🙁
Love of YOUR life sorry.
I don’t comment on here much anymore,,,, but this post demands I do.
Do you know my story? Point being, I was/am a lot like you, only I have no kid, which in my eyes would have made it easier to try to end it, and 2=366 days ago, I did just that, only I lived, yet shouldn’t have.
And for this past year I have been going through hell, still am with the skunk of a wife I had. My fight with that is not over yet.
But, I am here to tell you. Forget her. I recently found my soul mate, never thought I would, but I did.
And so you should have hope, because you can’t let that ***** ruin you. Mine almost cost me my life only coz I was so distraught that night, but I found to later (some months) her leaving was the best thing ever.
And your kid…… that alone is reason to live, seriously.
If he has a mom who is a *****, and thats all he has, whats he going to become? Stay in his life, be there for him. Forget your ex, and in time, if you are a good guy and treat women with respect, one will come along who was made for you and you for her.
As I discovered 🙂
Think hard about what I said here, coz I have been where you are.