A friend of mine called me a 45-year old veteran, and still does when she wants to poke fun at me. I’m an old soul, but not a Sagittarian however. I’ve still got nine years to go till I’m dirty thirty, but I should’ve punched my ticket long before then.
The bro Ken will look after you, and welcome aboard.
It’s not that I don’t want to talk to anyone that fits a certain criteria. I’m 42, I found this place while searching for exit bags and other methods. I thought “whoa these people feel just like I do” after reading some of the posts so I joined. Then I read a few posts mentioning school, and girls/boys that don’t like us anymore or whatever and I thought for a moment I was amongst all school aged kids, which would have made me feel worse. I can’t seem to find a way to say that which doesn’t sound judgmental. All those things they say and what they are feeling is completely valid, I remember those years as being hellish and I wouldn’t go back if I could. For some reason, because of my own shortcomings I suppose, I find it somewhat helpful to think that some people here who feel like I do are closer to my age. I don’t know why.
There are a good mix of people here but can’t talk freely about methods anymore. That’s ok for people like me who have been here a while but I can understand what it’s like to strongly want to end your life. I can also understand why you were apprehensive. People who are new to the site would probably find it easier to connect with other newbies. Having said that there are still a lot of older posters who are just as suicidal as they day they arrived.
Regular Force soldier. Was never operationally deployed. Trained like feck in order to ready myself for an eventual deployment…but then they brought the boys and girls home from Afghan.
Sorry for the confusion. My friend just assumed I was from the way I used to talk on here.
But then again, your post says to “check in if you’re older like me”. I am not like you. Not like any of these yahoos. I am as far beyond you as you are to the teens who frequent this space. I’ve forgotten more than I can remember of being 42 and 18 is a distant dream that seems to have happened to someone else.
Welcome to SP. I’m 46, as mentioned before, there are all ages here with a multitude of problems who are generally not understood in the outside world, hope this place helps you.
37 with T.B.I. from a motorcycle accident. My baby mom of 2 left me on good terms but still cant wait to go to whatever is next. Still have my cognition but my motor skills on my right side are fucked. Love alcohol, ***** and laughing. Weather we like it or not everyday is one less day of life! I sit here with loaded weapons wanting to die but have difficulty putting that on my loved ones. What will be will be or grow some balls and blow your fucking head off!!! Good luck – you’ll die one way or another!!!
Hi… I’m in my early forties. Although I mostly read, I do occasionally comment. I found this place during a dark night a few years ago and I’ve been here since then.
31. Came here last year after searching methods during a dark time. Visit lots when I am down. Didn’t write anything till recently since I am having another swing into the dark side.
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Yeah I just scrape in. Not sure you’d want to talk to me though.
Seeing 35 looming on the horizon. Well, 34 first, but still.
Hi I’m DeathDreamer and I’m an alcoholic. 27, three more years until 30. But I’ll be dead before then. And Kenny is a good person, do talk to him.
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im 32 i hope i’m dead by 33. you have a method yet?
A friend of mine called me a 45-year old veteran, and still does when she wants to poke fun at me. I’m an old soul, but not a Sagittarian however. I’ve still got nine years to go till I’m dirty thirty, but I should’ve punched my ticket long before then.
The bro Ken will look after you, and welcome aboard.
It’s not that I don’t want to talk to anyone that fits a certain criteria. I’m 42, I found this place while searching for exit bags and other methods. I thought “whoa these people feel just like I do” after reading some of the posts so I joined. Then I read a few posts mentioning school, and girls/boys that don’t like us anymore or whatever and I thought for a moment I was amongst all school aged kids, which would have made me feel worse. I can’t seem to find a way to say that which doesn’t sound judgmental. All those things they say and what they are feeling is completely valid, I remember those years as being hellish and I wouldn’t go back if I could. For some reason, because of my own shortcomings I suppose, I find it somewhat helpful to think that some people here who feel like I do are closer to my age. I don’t know why.
There are a good mix of people here but can’t talk freely about methods anymore. That’s ok for people like me who have been here a while but I can understand what it’s like to strongly want to end your life. I can also understand why you were apprehensive. People who are new to the site would probably find it easier to connect with other newbies. Having said that there are still a lot of older posters who are just as suicidal as they day they arrived.
I read that in the rules, I’m not going to go any further with it than what I said. Thanks Kenny.
I’ll be 29 in a few weeks. Shephard, your a veteran?
Regular Force soldier. Was never operationally deployed. Trained like feck in order to ready myself for an eventual deployment…but then they brought the boys and girls home from Afghan.
Sorry for the confusion. My friend just assumed I was from the way I used to talk on here.
I have an aging problem I haven’t been able to get a handle on that puts me 21 years beyond your 42, Mr Argh.
But then again, your post says to “check in if you’re older like me”. I am not like you. Not like any of these yahoos. I am as far beyond you as you are to the teens who frequent this space. I’ve forgotten more than I can remember of being 42 and 18 is a distant dream that seems to have happened to someone else.
Hello everyone.
Well Randall I’m glad you checked in anyway
Okey doke. Glad you’ve found this place.
I’m 32 and a newbie too.
Welcome to SP. I’m 46, as mentioned before, there are all ages here with a multitude of problems who are generally not understood in the outside world, hope this place helps you.
i’m as old as the jokes youtubers make
I’m ancient inside, but outside, only 27…
37 with T.B.I. from a motorcycle accident. My baby mom of 2 left me on good terms but still cant wait to go to whatever is next. Still have my cognition but my motor skills on my right side are fucked. Love alcohol, ***** and laughing. Weather we like it or not everyday is one less day of life! I sit here with loaded weapons wanting to die but have difficulty putting that on my loved ones. What will be will be or grow some balls and blow your fucking head off!!! Good luck – you’ll die one way or another!!!
I was so much older then, I’m younger than that now. Does that count, or am I disqualified?
Well, I believe I am approximately one year older than Sputnik. Holy crap, two of my four kids are over 30.
33…
I have never put my age on here. But yes, I am over 30. A bit older than Nias.
I used to think you were in you’re mid twenties until you mentioned how many years you’ve been working.
I used to think everyone on here was approx. 10 – 21 years old. I also thought you were around early twenties.
Hi… I’m in my early forties. Although I mostly read, I do occasionally comment. I found this place during a dark night a few years ago and I’ve been here since then.
Thanks for commenting
31. Came here last year after searching methods during a dark time. Visit lots when I am down. Didn’t write anything till recently since I am having another swing into the dark side.
Thanks for commenting
Add me to the mix.
Oh and when I first joined a few months back I wanted to do a post like this. I was curious and wondering who was in the same boat as me.
You too!