Will the feeling of hopelessness ever go away?. Will I ever feel or just even be normal again?. Why do i still have suicide thaughts even though i went through all this counselling seeing all the dr’s even being on meds for almost 2 years freaken….. i am so messed up
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You’re not messed up. Just a victim of circumstance. Our brains are ridiculous and don’t always respond how we hope they would. Hopelessness? Sucks. And all you can do is keep trying. I have heard success stories and I hope you can be among them. As with many chronic illnesses, it can not be fixed with one counsellor or one/a plethora of drugs. Persistence to find the RIGHT doctor and to make it work is required. Hard work that drains an already fragile mind. Don’t give up! The answer is there, it can sometimes take decades to find the right one. Not necessarily comforting, but achievable.
Thanks… I am trying with all i have I dont want to be like this forever. I want my joy back. I wes the one always smiling and motivating others then my husband died I was only 23 and married for 4 months that’s when it all started and I got worse and worse everyday. Ii the beginning I had a lot of frieds who said they cared. But they were not the good friends they said they and appeared to be. They hurt me and so much they were there for the wrong reasons and now I don’t mean anything to me. They hurted me and I still today don’t know what did I do to them to trrated me as they did. I spend all I had on them but when I did not had anyt hinge more yo give and needed them and I cried out for help they just dissapeared. And still today I don’t know what I did wrong, did I do something to hurt them or was I not good enough of a fried. Even wrone them email they never replied.
Everyday people fight their own fight. Maybe they stopped talkin to you because they were scared and saw themselves in your depression.
It’s a hard thing to deal with and it can drag others down to a point where they can no longer deal.
I often look at myself and wonder if I could deal with me in such a state. My answer is always no. When I’m happy, boy look out. There’s no holding me back and I will not tolerate negativity. When I’m depressed, everyone can just f¥€& off.
Dealing with death is not easy, especially when you are just about to start a new life with nothing but endless possibilities. Now it feels like they are all gone. Those people that didn’t e-mail you back? Let them go. Accept that this is a time you need to be alone. Make a small seemingly meaningless goal for yourself. Like getting out of bed. It’s amazing how good it can feel just to do that. That’s something I do for myself, and it seems to at least get me through the day. Heck, if I can get out of bed today maybe tomorrow I can get dressed :). If you’re working and HAVE to do those things already, find something else. It’s amazing how far an inch can take you.
Good question. I’m wondering the same thing lately.