You know that feeling that you get every time you get so scared that your heart feels like it’s going to drop to your stomach? Like there is someone ripping your heart out, artery by artery? That’s the feeling I get every time I lay my eyes on him. He ruined me. He ruined my family. The love, the trust, everything. It all vanished because of that selfish old man. Why me? Why us? What did WE do to deserve to go through these horrible couple of years? We were nothing but kind to him. We helped him in any way possible. He seemed kind to us too, until that day. Why that day? Did I dress differently? Did I provoke him? It’s all my fault. I’m sorry mom, I’m sorry dad. I didn’t mean for your daughter to turn out this way. You deserve better. I wish that I had never of met that man. He is a waste of space. He hurt me in a way that nobody else could. After the incident, being around him felt like I was being swarmed by evil demons, trying to creep into my soul and steal it away from me. I’m not the same as I used to be, all because of him. He set me free in a world full of ugly, horrible thoughts that no young girl should ever have to experience. In a way, I am happy that it was me, and not somebody else. I wouldn’t want anyone else to feel the pain that I feel. It was all my fault. I’m sorry mom, I’m sorry dad. Goodbye.
-E
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Sorry you feel this way. I’ve met many people that have dragged me down too. I’d hate to think my ex feels the same about me cuz really I don’t deserve to be thought of that way. I did a lot for him. I still could.
This wasn’t about my ex, hun. But I hope you are ok…
Well reading your post again if wasn’t your ex who did this to you?
…that’d be some perverted old fuckwit who I’m guessing took advantage of our friend E.
I despise sexual deviants. Let me grab some monkey bones and put a vex on this evil old fuckwit so that a piano can fall on his head.
Nobody asks to get taken advantage of; ever. Though the temptation will always present itself to those with primal inhibitions. I’m sorry this happened to you, I truly am. I had a girl in my life who was being set on by a family member even as we spoke via email. It made me utterly sick and…I feel ashamed everyday that I ended things with her, but she refused to speak up about it and I couldn’t allow myself to be destroyed any further by it.
So I’m glad you’ve told us, and I hope you’ll speak out to others. If by chance you live in NZ — gimme his address. I’ll stick him with my bayonet and peel back his face just for shits and giggles.
UGH!!!