I don’t want to kill myself..I want to live my life and be happy. I’m trying so hard to hold it together but I’m fucking it all up. I have so much to live for it shouldn’t be this fucking hard to stand confident.
I finally met this beautiful girl that likes me and wants to spend time and she’s already catching on to my depression. I’ve shown enough good parts of myself to make her see I’m a great guy but I literally can’t control the way I feel when I’m all alone. I’m fucking this all up. No, No this can’t be me..it can’t be real. She is so everything i need and all I have to do is grow up and keep my depression to myself. For the first time I’m seeing there might not be any fixing it but I’m so desperate to hide it quick before she sees how deep this gets. I just need some time to figure out my situation I don’t want her to give up on me cause that would shatter me I know it. I just need time. I’ve started looking for help but I’m also trying to be careful cause I fear being put away.
I just need a chance..
I just need time…
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I would love to say be yourself don’t hide your depression. But I’m a bit afraid like you that maybe she wouldn’t understand and wouldn’t want the baggage strait up so my advise is hide it and try not to be alone to she’s head over heels in love.then just throw it in to the conversation one day. By the time she’s in love with all your best qualities the depression will just be something she wants to help with. Lol that my optimistic advice anyhow. And yes I am a woman.
And yes that is a bit sly but trust me she’ll have a few things she might not want to let you know straight away
Thank you for the kindness
You can only hide it for so long… At some point, the situation will evolve. Speak with someone as things unfold. Get some counsel so you’re not walking down this road alone. If she figures out that you have some struggles, there’s nothing wrong with that. Welcome to life. You have struggles and, importantly, you’re working on them.
Thank you that helps
I just wish I could talk to my ex and get some closure.. I want to tell her how this whole mess has fucked me all up. I want to tell her how hard it is for me now in my new life to hold it together for my new girl. I just want her to tell me I’m gonna be ok. I want her to tell me she’s sorry for leaving me like this ..so lost and broken
Exes do fuck you up. I still struggle because I didn’t get closure from my ex and unfortunately my husband ( we were still married ) died suddenly in July and now I know I will never get the answers .but really deep down I think I was just searching for my self esteem back a need to know I was worth it. Hang in there it does get better
I’m sorry for your loss
I never expect life to be fair…I just want to be stronger than this
I’m running out of people who think i can handle it on my own, and that’s so scary
I can’t help feeling like this girl used me for sex. I didn’t want that. I wanted to wait.. I have feelings for her but i think that’s what happened. I cant feel good about this, I don’t care what anyone thinks