Will you use your final act to help others in suffering? I am thinking of writing a concise message for the news to pick up on if they cover my death.
Depression and anxiety are real. Hug your friends. Learn to notice signs of depression (they can be hard to detect). Offer your own experiences with pain, and don’t give up on friends going through a rough time. You are likely much more important to them than you think you are.
Am I rambling?
The method must be drastic. I don’t know how specific I am allowed to be here, but I am inspired by the monks in the East…
Suicides are red flags that something is wrong with society. If I’m already suicidal, I might as well use that opportunity death gives me to help others in pain.
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I wish you weren’t suicidal but at least youre thinking of others as well as yourself. So many people choose to ignore the warning signs and then wonder later what they could’ve done to help. The world needs to open it’s eyes. This is an epidemic and deserves attention.
I have an immense capacity for empathy after feeling so terrible for the last few years. This has been a wonderful and unexpected benefit of suffering. I just don’t know how to express it yet. That would be great to figure out. My shyness is still misinterpreted as me being rude or dismissive, when it couldn’t be further off the mark.
When it comes to the end, the least I can do is use that last moment that’s going to happen anyway as an act for others.
I believe most news organizations these days have a policy of not reporting on run-of-the-mill suicides so as not to glorify them. The only way around this is to kill yourself in some notable way in a public location or to be a famous person, it seems.
A while ago I was working out an elaborate plan to ensure that my organs are donated, but I found out this is actually pretty difficult. In order for this to happen you have to be brain dead but with your blood still circulating, meaning you need to be put on life support almost immediately and without damage to any organs but your brain, meaning no poison or drugs. Shooting myself in the brainstem in the lobby of a hospital was what I came up with, but I wouldn’t want to risk hurting anyone else with the gun, and if I used a slower method I’d probably increase the risk of being “saved” and becoming a vegetable. It sucks that it’s so much easier to hurt people than to help them.
That organ donation info makes me sad. I am (will be?) listed as a donor, but I never thought about the conditions required for donation.
I know the media is discouraged to report on suicides because of the copycat effect. Something like self-immolation would be reported, though.
The vegetable ending does scare the shit out of me.
The vegetable ending scares everyone here, self-immolation is just too horrible to imagine and people do survive for days afterwards so the pain would be extreme and may be prolonged. There’s probably ways of being reported in the press if you do it in certain ways I guess.
The organ donation thing isn’t entirely accurate. When my husband passed I got phone calls the next day from the organ donation people asking for permission to take his retinas and some skin grafts.They had a 48 hour window to harvest his organs. Even if you kill yourself, if you’re a donor, you may be able to help someone. The major organs like heart, liver, lungs, etc probably need to be harvested immediately after death. The people who donate those organs are usually people already dying in the hospital due to a different organ failure or non-affecting condition. Thus the high demand and low supply of hearts, kidneys and livers.