It hurts when someone lies to you. It hurts to think that you love the image they give to you when it’s not the real self. It hurts like hell, cause you tried to give yourself to someone in a real way, you open up your soul to them, you give your mind to them, your feelings, your heart, your life. It hurts cause is a constant why, why is he lying to me? , why is he treating me like this and treating her like that ? why is he giving her that and giving me something else ? Is he giving me his real self or he is giving himself to someone else? Just why why why why.
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Yeah I feel for you hell. I know your pain. I’m so deeply in love with my ex bf I don’t know what to do…I can’t even think st8 and I’m lost without him, I’m nothing without him…nothing. He’s just everything to me, I can’t believe how lost I am without him. Everything seems dark without him, colours don’t have the same brilliance without his presence in my life…he’s so deep in my soul I can’t even express myself properly…it’s other worldly and I’ve never felt this way before in my life, truly I haven’t. To be honest he’s the only one who can save me…there’s no point even in trying to feel good without him. I remember how he used to sing in my bathroom and it was like an angel had graced me with it’s presence. I know he doesn’t love me, I know that. My God, what I’d do for him…I mean anything…I’m ready to die for him. If there’s a God then now is the time to do something so indescribable it would touch the deepest thing in me. I love you Brennan more that life itself…I love ypu Brennan so much I’m crying as I write this…LOVE YOU Brennan.
people often lie because they feel inadequate with their own selves. And since you mention there is another in the picture he is acting differently to… let me guess… he is being really nice to her, and you wish you could see that side of him. But he is lying to her, too, thats not the real him. Lying to get what he wants, lying to her, lying to you. Who knows who he really is, stripped of all of his motivations. We all go through this, we fall for a mask someone has put on for us. And it feels like a betrayal. Its okay to feel shitty, mourn the loss of who you thought this person was. Be kind to yourself!
My ex bf used to lie to me. He told me he loved me then would dump me (3 times). he lied about his age. He lied saying he would come and see me and just wouldn’t show up time after time and would be totally uncontactable. He lied about where he lived. I guess we all lie but I didn’t lie about how much I loved him but by towards the end it got so bad that really the writing was on the wall. But I still love him and that’s no lie.
This post reminds me of a song….
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RujWLBt5PNo