I was happy with everything in my life until 6th grade, when I found out I was gay. I haven’t told anyone I am yet, but how can I? My mom, one of the people I trust the most said on election day “I’m not voting to allow gay marriage, it’s just wrong and unholy.”. Until then I thought I could tell her anything and she would still love me. Now I have suicidal thoughts, cut myself and cry almost daily and still nobody has a clue that they are torturing me. I’m 15 now and I still don’t know what to do. I’ve always tried to be nice to people incase they feel the same way I do, so what awful crime did I commit? Loving someone?
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Nothing is wrong with you, no crime has been committed by just being you. It’s bollocks that anyone would make you feel otherwise just for who you love.
Look, you’re 15. Not a single decision about coming out or not has to be made right now. Take the pressure off yourself and breathe. Some of my friends, whom I love more dearly than anyone on the planet, came out almost into their twenties(some later).
When you are a teen, there is a lot going on anyway. You just need to come out when it is right for you, and the people who love you will love you regardless. It may not be easy at first, but they will come around eventually. My friend, just keep your head high right now. Don’t let the pressure overwhelm you. You will know when the time is right to tell people. The great thing is that no one has that power…but….you. Let me repeat, there is absolutely nothing, nothing, nothing wrong with being gay. At all. Remember that we are who we are, and we love who we love.
Just relax, take some time to think this over. You have time to think it over. There is no need to cut, or cry, or to be suicidal. If necessary, tell your mom that you need to talk to a therapist, you need it if all this is going on inside you. We all need someone to talk to on occasion.
Thank you, you have made my day a bit brighter. 🙂 I hope that you are right that they will come around and love me again once I do. Although, I guess it’s not that they don’t like gay people, I mean, everyone is allowed to have an opinion. It’s just they say they love me, but I know that they really wouldn’t if I was myself.
It may be really hard and difficult for them to accept at first, but they would love you. One of my best friends came from a family of literal cowboys, and the family thought that his father was going to kill him when he came out. The father barely reacted, and loved my friend just the same as always. Others had family members that were angry or sad for a long time, but eventually they came around.
I am not saying it’s easy, but I am saying that it will be okay. As I said, you get to make the decision here, but do not put so much pressure on it. Only do it when you feel ready. Cheers, friend.
EMBRACE YOUR GAYNESS!! I love talkin to fellow queers seeing as im bi sexual myself. good stuff (:
This comment gave me a giggle. KSO, you have the most jovial comments some times.
in another life i was santa so that makes sense
Ah. Well, that explains it then.
It’s not a crime to be gay, or to love another man, don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise. I hope you live in a liberal and tolerant country. I know family love is always stronger than prejudices and stereotypes; most people who get to know homosexuals realize that they’re as normal a human being as anyone else. That’s especially true in families.
And being against gay marriage does not necessarily include being against homosexuals themselves; at least if the first is not a result of the latter.
I know the life of homosexuals can be very tough because of how people treat and react to you. I hope you’ll find friends who like and tolerate you nevertheless.
Thanks, I hope I find friends like that too.
Cjohnson33,
I can understand your apprehension in telling your mother, but I have personally found that many people tend to re-evaluate their views when someone close to them is on another side of the fence (for lack of a better term) in regard to what their beliefs are. In other words, your mother take a second look at her belief that gay marriage is “wrong and unholy” if her child is homosexual.
As for when and or whether or not you should tell her, that is completely up to you. But self-harm is certainly not the answer and if you feel you do need to speak with someone, I think a therapist could be a good idea, as Deathy058 suggested above.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)
I just want to agree with the other comments that there is nothing wrong with being gay, it’s who you are, and your friends and family, when/if you do feel it’s time to tell them, I hope they can respect your honesty and accept your sexuality.
i honestly dont know why its such a big deal either..it pisses me off how ppl make it so big… its not like u transformed into a werewolf <— wud be cool although only thing thats changed is romantic interest… ur the same person!! fuckin pisses me off i tell ya
Maybe see if there is a LGBTQ centre in your area. You will find much needed support there.